Slowly we're turning

I can't say I'm bright, nor can I say that I'm brainy.
Honestly, I think I just look brainy(or nerdy) and sound like that.
But the fact is that..
I'm NOT. honestly. honestly. honestly.
People will never trust me on this matter. =/

Everything I manage to do is just to my understanding,
Some firm understandings that can be false unknowingly.

Since highschool, I've never had a favourite subject.
You think I like maths? nope.
Chemistry? physics? bio? english?!

none of them at all.

I just enjoy solving questions that require thinking especially physics, math and chemistry questions.

BUT

that doesn't mean I'm good at any of these subjects.
It doesn't mean I like them either.

To be honest, I've always hated chemistry and physics.
The only thing I look forward to in physics were just.. logic gates.
Yeah, VERY small topic, but that's the only topic I like.
I like logic stuff. sometimes..
I can't even tell what's my interest. pathetic right.

I love solving questions. tricky questions calculation questions, questions that require as much understanding as possible, etc etc.
however, I hate coming to the fact that the answer I get might not be the right one.
And the worst part is finding out that I am actually wrong.
I'll be really disappointed.
Just as I am now after seeing all my supposed-to-be-confirmed-correct answers turning out to be wrong for chemistry.
It's not really such a big deal as it seems, but to me it is.
Even when I work hard to get the answers or not, as long as I didn't do well, you'd see me dragging my extra long face everywhere for that day.

Worst part of it all, I end up suffering from depression and low self esteem.
I'd be less confident, even less confident than I usually am. haha.

Don't know where this is leading to anyway.
BYE!