Almost lost what I tried so hard to get, what I tried so long to get.
Almost..

Holding something so priceless. So fragile.
It's already in your hands.
You don't hold on to it properly and it falls on the floor.
You're lucky it cracks (to which extent you're not sure yet) instead of shattering into pieces which you would be then losing it for good.
Broken pieces to fit back the same way.
Is it cracked? dented? How much? we don't know.
But if it falls again, it won't be what it used to be anymore.

But that's not the point. The point is if you ever let it get damaged, you don't deserve it.
I'm feeling undeserving of this.
This is, for the first time in my life, I've been given grace from a person.

Something wrong? no. Everything's wrong with me.

Am I not in the picture?

You in my shoes and I in yours.

Everyone is busy.
But take a second to reflect on ourselves how we've been no matter what the circumstances.

Take a breather and think for a moment.

How would you feel if someone starts treating you the way you treat them?
Would you hate them because it's something unpleasant?
or would it be something that you'd feel good about?

If everyone around you started acting like you, would everyone get along?
Or would everyone distance themself from each other, not being able to get along?

Think once, yet-to-be-bloomed comfort.
Think twice, secrets hidden deep.

Trust. A word easy to say, but the deeds to convince us is hard to come by.

Sometimes we want to trust, we convince ourselves to give it a shot.
One shot that could either bring benefits, or just hurt us.

Sometimes we mistrust people because we've failed to see the truth in them.

Mistrust is my bestfriend because Trust hasn't shown up.

Convince me.

each time I listen to this song, it brings me back to those July-August days.
It makes me miss those days.




Back to those days where I didn't realize I was falling for you.

This is honestly the first time I'm feeling something that has happened over one year.
It's exactly 1 year since I came to Mas1.
Everything I've been through.
I've never missed the old days as much as I do now.
Perhaps it's because we've 3 weeks left to our exams and after our exams, we'll probably never see each other again.
Fun and drama, it made the entire year a roller coaster, but rather memorable.
Memories of all the fun, scars of all the pain, how could I forget this one year after everything that has happened?
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Songs that bring back memories.
Memories so strong, like it were only yesterday.
But how sad it is that yesterday is already long gone, and tomorrow will never be the same as today and yesterday.