Friday, January 30, 2009

Like The Vagabond

I just got back from futsal.
I can't run anymore.
Knees giving up on me.
They're like jelly when I run.

Morning I went out with BenZhi to the old folks home to settle some stuff for tomorrow's project.
We then went to Frutti for breakfast with his dad.
BenZhi looks like his dad. really.
And they sound the same when they talk.
Their favourite word is always "nonsense la!"
After that I went off to Mr Woon's place.
I went there, filled up my tummy, and went off for futsal.

2 days left before school starts again.
I'm gonna stop using the pc so often after this weekend is over.
I'm gonna be so busy, I would probably die before the first day of school ends.

Everything is settling in,
Just like how it was all supposed to begin.
Now a drifter,
Leaving again further.

The gradient is not negative anymore,
There is no reason to stay for more.
They say it's fate,
I'm always late.
Just with the flow,
Nobody shall ever know,
What they have missed,
or what comes after this.
We tried,
But they died.
The end is always because of the beginning,
And every consequence because of its actions.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

The Once In A Blue Moon

I haven't really blogged for the past week.
So, I'll update on some stuff..
Last Friday was cross country.
It was.. okay?
I got 30th anyway... sad. yeah.


Saturday we went to school and did some mural thing for Leo.
We weren't under direct sunlight, but I had all the burns on my back and neck.
Last Saturday wasn't much.
Then came Sunday.
It was a horribly hot day.
After church we went to gramp's place for reunion lunch.
We didn't have the usual reunion dinner 'cause this time most of them were going to Penang.
We watched The Day The Earth Stood Still there.
Wasn't really thrilling as expected, but still at passing borderline la.
After lunch we went back, packed up, and left straight for Ipoh.
We arrived at grandma's place.
The house was really noisy only because of two kids.
Two kids that can scream their heads off till your heads drop off too.
HongHong was like the elder sibling, and he was like.. on some sugar diet.
He was like darting here and there..
He could munch one mouthful of rice, run around for 10 minutes and still have the rice being munched away.
Nuts.


JingFong was already at Ipoh.
He couldn't stand a quiet CNY in Singapore.
So he just came and joined us till next month.
On the first day of new year, we had dinner at aunty YokeCheng's place.
It's the place my parents would always go to.
They'll karaoke till they drop, then only go home.
It was only the second day that everyone would go to KimYu's place for dinner.
Some sort of reunion dinner.
The place wouldn't be so lively if it weren't for the british kids. lol
Aunty WanCheng married a British.
And their kids look like they have no chinese ancestry.
We came back on the 3rd day.
I brought along some rockets and crackers.
Haven't really tried them out.
If you want some, come over and pick them up. =D
After unpacking yesterday night, I went over to Kevin's place.
Yeah, Kevin Yap, not Kevin Lee.
My sis received this sms on her phone, which used to be my number, which was an invitation to his open house on the 3rd day.
she replied one whole load of stuff.
And felt really stupid after she found out it wasn't the Kevin she thought it was.


Today I got up, went and finish up the mural thing, and came back.
Uncle Steven and Uncle John came visiting in the afternoon.
Uncle Steven came for his Pomelo as he always did for the past few CNYs.
After that, TzeWei brought his sisters, Randall and JaeWen over here.
Then together we all went off to Erny's place.
I haven't really played any crackers this year, other than the tossing of the dragon eggs I'd do everytime.
I haven't been able to sleep well lately, it explains my joint pains.
I must've caught a cold, 'cause I have my knee pains again.
I almost had sore throat and flu.
I couldn't attend KangSiang and Chee Kiat's open house.
Anyway, good luck KangSiang if you're reading this.
Make it official already la, don't hide. lol.
I made up my mind that I won't be gaming anymore after this hols end.
Time to pick up on my studies and work hard.
I don't have much time.
I'll finish up the rest of this post with a couple of pics.



That's us in Leo camp after feeding leeches.

The chillis! we're spicy and hawt! some still available. LOL. YingZhi was taking over on the talking, while I starting posing for the camera. biasalaaa..



Us at the birthday dinner thing at Alor Star. All reeed..


We were fighting to take pictures with Hayley. chubby kid. lol

Me, BeeChian, Joan, Alen, JingFong.


Year End Gathering: top-bottom, left right. EeRen, Joan, Christine, Me, Samuel, Alvin, Kevin, and Sam's cousin.

I found this old picture in Ipoh. I was a wild kid since then.. LOL.


That's me and dad at a dinner.

It All Began Right Here.

I started to cry,
which started the whole world laughing,
Oh, if I'd only seen
that the joke was on me.
I looked at the skies,
running my hands over my eyes,
And I fell out of bed,
hurting my head from things
that I've said.
Til I finally died,
which started the whole world living,
Oh, if I'd only seen
that the joke was on me.

I just got back from Ipoh today.
Unpacked a little and headed straight for Kevin's open house thingy.
I'll post up more stuff tomorrow..
More than the nothing of today. lol.
Happy CNY people.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Are You Killing Me Like How You Took Care of the Cats?

For the past few days, the weather just gets worse and worse.
I'm so burnt and dehydrated now.
I'd probably need at least 3 showers a day.

CNY is on Monday.
We're going back to Ipoh tomorrow afternoon after lunch.
All those going back to Ipoh, hope we'd meet up somehow.
Those going elsewhere.. hope you don't end up in Ipoh? =.=
Anywaaay..
Happy CNY in advance to everyone.
Have a booming one.

The past few days were filled with ups and downs.
Hots and colds, sweetness and bitterness.
And every other opposites.
I've been feeling so tired, but I just can't sleep.
My energy has been drained.
My life sucked dry.
My hope breaking and mending over and over again.
I know I'll make it, but it seems that I might not.
The past scars give me the fear I never thought I'd have.
The heavy rain comes out even when the sun is at its brightest.
I've been trying to be everything but ending up becoming nothing.
Trying to understand things but never had the chance to.

I'm feeling very burnt.
I'll go shower now.
Happy CNY everyone.
Chaoz.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Twisting and Turning Again.

Just got back from school.
Everything went fine today.
The projects all went fine today.
Came home with just a bruise and a burnt neck.

Things are starting to change.
Almost everything.
Except my homework.. LOL.
Somebody should like.. hit me each time I don't do my homework.
I can't get myself motivated enough to do my homework.

YenLin finally sent me something that could get my attention.
It was about missionary schools in our country and what is happening etc etc.
Just check it out.
http://daysofturmoil.blogspot.com/2007/11/oh-no-bitch-you-did-not-jut-say-that.html
It's a not-bad-at-all post.

What if there was no lie
Nothing wrong, nothing right
What if there was no time
And no reason, or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
What if I got it wrong
And no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life that's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side that's right
How can you know it, if you don't even try
Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
That's the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life
That you don't want me there by your side
Let's take a breath, jump over the side.
You know that darkness always turns into light.

I feel kinda sleepy.
I woke up at the wrong side of bed today.
Might be off to jogging soon and then drop by Erny's place.
That's all.
Chachaoz.

Friday, January 16, 2009

I'm Not Him. Not Anymore.

I just got back from BBQ at Sabash's place.
It was a Leo event.
Many turned up.
unexpectedly..
It has been a really long day.
First was trying my best to keep myself awake in school.
Then a 30 minute wait for the dumb bus.
Then a long wait for just a roti kosong.
2 hours and 15 minutes of bm tuition torture.
Then finally, half an hour of jogging with Danny and Kenny.
they didn't jog anyway..too full. lol.

KangSiang didn't come to school today.
We saw him after school coming out of Modern.
We found it obvious what he was doing there anywaay..

The past few days were like the graph of time against displacement with super high amplitudes.
External forces came like an armada of warships.

Up next is my car wash project in school tomorrow onwards.
Friday is cross country, then the next week is chinese new year.
If i'm not mistaken.
And there's the church camp at Pangkor in March.
I wonder when is YES gonna be this year..
can't wait for the others to come up to Klang and join us.
Oh and btw, I failed my organ exam.
So.. yeah.
Retaking it this June.
Ping pong mssd is coming up early Feb.
We'll show the other schools our school's lousiest team is better compared to their's. lol

All this time you've been telling me lies
Hidden in bags that are under your eyes
And when I asked you I knew I was right
But if you turn your back on me now
When I need you most
But you chose to let me down
Won't you think about what you're about to do to me
And back down...
Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know
Tomorrow is gonna be a long day too.
Hope I'm just gonna make it through the day..
That's all.. for now.
chaoz.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Doubting the Undeceiving.

It's been 10 days since i last updated.
I've always wanted to update..but i got kinda lazy to update. lol.
It's the second week of school already.
Alot of things took place within the past 10 days.
It's like the longest 10 days I've ever lived in.

First day of school, we were sorted into our classes.
Cheong, CheeKiat, KangSiang, Ivan, Hazreen and I moved up to L class.
Sadly, BenZhi was sent to U class.
Deweil didn't make it to L class either..
That's something we are unable to help.
Now L class is like the noisy class with the most Leo Board of Directors and Prefects.
We have meetings in class illegally like everyday.. lol

The most disappointing thing that happened this year was the educational department deciding to abolish our clubs.
Clubs such as the taekwando club, music and cultural club, rekacipta/robotics club, History and Geo club and many more.
That means I have already lost 2 president posts.
Now i'm only secretary for ping pong club, Youth and twinning director for Leo and a mini post for prefects... still no idea what that post is called.
Today we had our cocurriculum registration day.
It's the day where we register our names into clubs we want to join.
Since there were no lenion uniform society, we decided to join KAPA.
It's some pertahanan awam thingy.. hahahaha.
After the registration, we had our sport house AGM.
our house was the stupidest house.
Really.
With all the nice teachers, and racists, the meeting was a disappointing one.
More than half the crowd was made up of indians.
Hari had the most votes, he was made ketua rumah sukan.
I had the 2nd most votes.
They were expecting me to be slotted into the secretary post, but Hari erased the names and the votes. =.=
That really pissed me off.
Then teacher let him go and everything went messy, I ended up with no post.
among the 8 posts available, 4 or 5 were indians.
Racists I tell you.

I was cycling home from school today.
And i was like 2 blocks from my house, when these two malays on motorcycles rode past me.
After they saw this car pass by, then U-turned back.
I was at the corner, deciding to turn at the corner 'cause I knew they were gonna do something to me.
Well, I guessed right, they overtook me and tried to stop me by turning right in front of me.
They were demanding for me to stop or something asking me to jangan lari or something.
I had no choice, I started speeding off as fast as i could with low gear. LOL
they started to chase me, speeding after me as fast as they could.
I stopped right in front of some chinese guy's house, pretending it was my house.
They overshot 'cause they didnt expect me to stop and were fooled by me.
They gave up and sped off.
I cycled back home quickly before they could come back again.
This is not the first time something like that happened to me.
Last year another 2 malays on mcycles came and tried to kick me down from my bike while I was cycling home.
They failed though.
They missed and kicked my mudguard instead.
really dumbasses i tell you..

I can tell you, i'm no racist.
But the malays boys in teluk pulai are really stupid.
most of them.. not all.
They puff they cigarettes away, snatch bags, race, rempit and any other thing you can think of.
Flashing is included btw..
So uneducated teenagers.
Wonder what they're gonna do when they come to realization about the world or when they wake up into reality.
Probably collecting rubbish or mopping floors.
Really sad thing to see..

Cross country is next friday.
I hope I'll achieve something this time.
Leo Idol is on Feb 21 and 22.
Opened to all Leos.
Our IU day is gonna be on the 18th of April.
Convent Interact is having its IU on that day.
Support Leo IU day, Interact doesn't need anymore support.
They already have sufficient support.

Last week I sat for my CLD test.
I passed orientation.
The results for Experience and Opportunity are still pending..
Forum is on the 7th of June.
Church Camp is during the first 3 days of the March holidays.

There's nothing much now..
probably forgotten what to blog about..lol
That's all.
Chaoz =)

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Could've Been

I. Put your iTunes/any other players on shuffle.
II. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
III. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!IV. Tag 11 friends who might enjoy doing this.

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
-Nothing to Say
2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
- Invincible..
3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
-A Walk in the Forest
4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
-Crash and Burn
5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
-Signal Fire
6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
-Won't Go Home Without You
7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
-What Hurts the Most
8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
- It Is Well With My Soul
9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
- Unsaid Things
10. WHAT IS 2+2?
- Someday We'll Know
11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
-Too Close for Comfort
12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- Staring At the Sun
13. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
- Lucky
14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
- 10:04
15. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
- Stop and Stare
16. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
- Foolish Games
17. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
- Unwell
18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
- Butterflies and Hurricanes
19. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
-Chasing Cars
20. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
- If You're Gone
21. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
- Maybe =.=
22. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
- Look What You've Done
23. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
- Learning To Breathe
24. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
-Could've Been

Tagging:
Me, you, they, them, us, it, him, her, more hims and more hers.
Just anyone SS enough to do this thing.

I Tried. Maybe I Tried Too Hard.

Another year has come and pass.
It's 2009 already.
The thing that Alvin said after the Year End Gathering was "Aaah, SPM SPM SPM!"
Most of us are form 5 this year.
And form 5 means less dota, less blackshot, less any other computer games.
I played my last dota match on friday.
If we didnt win that match, it wouldn't have been my final match. lol
I got mvp for the 5th time on blackshot on friday.

School is going to reopen tomorrow.
I don't even have my form 5 books yet.
My book shelf is literally empty now.
This year's schedule is going to be tighter than last year's.
I wish we could all go back to the start of the November school hols.

Since the new year, I haven't been to anywhere except Vivien's new year party.
It was an okay event.
I'm just too lazy to type.
So..
Yeah. =)

RCC meeting and CLD tests are on this coming saturday.
I dont know if i can make it back for YCF at 3.
Just hope I can.
Chinese new year is in 3 weeks.
It's one of the only..um.. thing? that I'm looking forward to this month.
And not forgetting those that are gna turn a year older this month.
Shiyee is on the 6th,
Dad is on the 10th,
JingChuan on the 14th,
KwangYaw on the 22nd,
Frederick on the 24th.

That's all the birthdays i remember.
If your's is not stated there, then i'm so sorry for forgetting.
And it's just too bad for you I forgot. HAHAHa.

I'll update soon, I hope..
That's all.
Happy new year to all.
Chaoz.