Sometimes, the things we say remain just as they are. Just words.
Words don't mean a thing until the deed is done, or until the action is shown.
We can say all we want, but if nothing is done, what we say is of no use at all.

I used to drink at least 1.5 litres of water within 6a.m-2p.m.
Those were the high school days.
If I still don't drink at least a glass of water each hour, I'm really gonna die young.

Sometimes we just fail to see that the thing we really need and want is so abundant everywhere around us.
Or are we just seeking for something else?

Bearings so uncertain.

If you're just taking me for granted,
there's no point for me to be lingering around here.
Things change ever since they started,
and most beginnings just disappear.



It's more frequent now, what I'm feeling.
In terms of quantity, it is little.
But if everything is taken into consideration,
this little pain is no joking matter.
It may be of my own doings.
It might be a sign telling me
that our time is about to run out if the next few days don't go right.
In short, I stand a chance of losing you now.
Losing you just so easily.

Just for the moment?

I wished you would just speak out and share.
Not hide.

When the end comes and it is over, all is forgotten.
When the time comes, all that wasn't truly required of is gotten rid of.
When the moment arrives, the true side of us shows.
When the thought comes to mind, another thought comes into the mind to confuse it.
When the appointed time comes to pass and nothing is done, we know why it is so.
When this sentence ends, this blogpost ends.

Where'd you go?

So long ago, like it was just a mere fairy tale.

Those care free days seem so far away now.
Almost everything today is made up of complications.

You see, the root of problems begin with stupidity.
When stupidity strikes one in the head, that person can no longer think logically or with common sense without letting emotions take over the mind.
Emotions are the reason why many people stir up drama.
Emotions are the reason why humans cannot think straight sometimes.
Emotions are the reason behind why humans do so many stupid things, regardless big or small.

I'm not trying to say emotions are not good at all, I'm trying to say that emotions have got to be controlled.
Through emotional control, the thoughts can be controlled.
With our thoughts being controlled, we can think straight and logically.
By thinking straight and logically, everything can run as smoothly as possible, even though there might be some obstacles, it is still much better than letting emotions come into effect.

However everything doesn't come down to just emotions, there are times where arrogance and ego steps in.
That is where we say if that person can't take a step lower, just buzz off.
Nobody can stand the proud and arrogant.
They can start fires they can freeze the environment.
They can start a big war, they can start a cold war.
They can do anything dramatic possible, as long as they don't step back down to everyone's level.

I dunno what I just typed.
If it will ever make sense.

It sounds like but it isn't.

Doubt.
Not about you,
but about it.

Uncertainty.
If this is true,
or just a game.
maybe I've been to serious.

Thoughts.
They go too far,
they think too simple.
Ironic and often contradictory.

Time.
Runs fast.
Spins the entire situation round and round.
And I'm thinking if it will be of any influence.

Character.
Am I seeing all?
Am I seeing the real?
Something somehow isn't quite right, or is it?

Patience.
empty, they're being recharged,
frequent flunctuations, I still wonder,
how could something infinitely long become so short.

You.
How much do I know?
what do you seek?

Me.
I fail in getting through,
but what I seek, am I at the right place?

My time is short.

I've been pushing myself to start studying, which I never actually do until my major exams are just round the corner.
Well, today I've been sitting here but still unable to complete my Malaysian Studies assignment.
Our folio was to be based on Mahathir and Najib.
Unfortunately, Najib was the hardest topic to finish.
It's all wordy and not interesting at all!
I'm literallly falling asleep while trying to finish the part on Najib.

I think my time is almost up.
My attention time span is really short.
reaaaally short.
For me to sit down and study or be involved in any sort of work for more than 1 hour is already.. a miracle. D:
well maybe not to that extreme, but I don't usually give attention to something for more than half an hour unless my life depends on it or unless it's something that makes my adrenaline gush through my bloodstream.

Where's my excitement?
I need to go do something like play paintball.
I know I'm really busy and hectic most of the time, but I'm bored at the same time.

Time to go.
chaoz.

When faith in things we do are weaken to nothing but just doubts and second thoughts..

It's amazing
When the happy can sound sad,
while the sad sound happy;
The lively to look dead,
while the dead look lively;
The right to sound wrong,
but the wrong to sound right;
The plight to sound like a song,
but the song to sound like a plight.
The truth to sound deceiving,
where as lies sound so convincing;
The tremors in the silence,
but peace in a storm;
To miss one in their absence,
but never appreciate their presence.
To spill out thoughts of the mind,
but the words you can never find.

I haven't been able to say what I was thinking.
I still don't know what is it.

Through the mist, another twist.

Yes, not everything stays the same.
Everythings changing.
Things that don't matter become things that do matter,
things that matter matters more now.

I've always had around 6 hours of sleep since form 3,
never been able to find out how come it's always like that.
But if I'm sleep deprived, so be it.
I'll make use of that time to start on things I should've started a long time ago.

It's time to build up my future that I've been keeping aside all along.

My wishful thinking

I'm getting more tired day by day.
Yes, I even slept halfway during my econs test today.
Lucky I woke up in time to finish the whole paper.
Aaron was too tensed to even notice me sleeping for 10 minutes beside him. LOL.

Today was the first time for us,the exco of A-levels club, to have our own meeting by ourselves.
Honestly I've missed this feeling I felt, being involved in some group work.
I missed the old Leo days, hectic but fun somehow.
Hope we be able to make the club rise up from where it currently is.

I've been trying to avoid having to take the KTM home these days.
It's unreliable.
It's really crowded in the train (with stinky people of course), it's always late, always delayed, always slow, always frustrating.

I just realized that my semester exams are in 1 month's time, YES is also in 1 month's time, and my holidays is when everybody else is back to school.
Great..

There's statistic's test tomorrow.
I dislike my maths&stats lecturer.
Mr.Sony. (better known as Miss Sony, or Mrs Sony Viga)
He looks like a stern man, but once he starts talking and moving about the class, your first impression of him would change right away.

For not knowing and being impatient,
I jumped in when I shouldn't have.
But hearing what needed to be said,
relief filled in.
Too early for me to say,
time will tell.

Time to go do something productive like sleeping.
LOL.
Bye.

The hands covered in blood

2 failures of trust,
Don't be the 3rd.

I wanted honesty and truth,
they gave me lies and hid away the truth instead.
Now if you do the same,
I have no one anymore to trust.
Never again.

Some things just don't last..

But some do make a comeback after sometime..


MAN! I miss my long hair.

Coconut or not I want my long hair! GAAAH.

It started with an alright scene.

Unintendedly, unknowingly, I think I've been putting my expectations too high.
I don't know how to stop this continuous change that has been going on and on.

is it even possible?

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I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me .

I know you're gonna find your way back to me.

I've finally been into a cinema after 5 months!
Went and watch Iron Man 2.
Nothing but aweeesomeee.
Go watch it and you'll find out why.

I had a haircut today.
Really short this time.
I couldn't stand the ugliness of the previous haircut.
It was so horrible, it could even make the most retarded person with the most retarded haircut to look good.

I finally managed to explain one of the many things about me I've been so curious about but was never been able to put them into words.
I am a person of high curiousity and I truly enjoy exploring and learning new things.
But I dislike routines or having to perfect something I've done before.

It's almost the month of June now.
Responsibilities are starting to pile up, workload increasing.
I'm going to be going through hectic but boring days.

I'll wait.
Just hope it's within my capability.

When the compass needle spins despite the compass's stationary postition.

Is it all so simple or is everything just complicated?

And I've forgotten all this time that we're heading off for different directions in time to come.
You, to where I've been trying to avoid.
I, to where I don't have to return back here again.

Everyday we wait,
If it takes too long,
Just tell me something new,
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone.

What about now?

Some people say just be patient, the time will come.
Do you actually know when that 'time' will come?
If you see an opportunity arising, do you wait?
Patience is a virtue, but not taking actions and convincing yourself there will be another opportunity in future is not patience, but rather foolishness.
Only fools will say this "take it easy, there's still time. If not now, there'll still be another opportunity in future."

I highly oppose the idea where the same opportunity would arise again.
Sometimes we think too optimistically until we fail to open our eyes to the real world.
Hello and welcome back to reality.
Opportunities not taken: there may never be a next time.
Humans can never forsee the future and predict if there will ever be another opportunity.
So why wait?
It's better to be safe than sorry; take the opportunity while it's still there before you may never have the chance ever to do what you wanted or needed to do.
Don't wait and end up regretting.

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I haven't been sleeping right.
The habit of waking up around 4am is getting worse.
I end up getting less than 5 hours of sleep each day, which includes weekends.
As for now, I'm exhausted.
Tired of everything.
I need sometime away from the presence and eyes of people.
Here we go again..