Singapore '09

Right after YDP, Daryl, Joan, Krystle, and I, boarded the Jurong bus and went down to singapore.
Daryl and Krystle stayed over and Zilin's place, while my sis and I at our grandaunt's place as usual.
It's been a while since I've been to Singapore. I used to like going there for the nice wind and comfort.

The moment I stepped into my grandaunt's condominium, WHOA! new computers and laptops around the condo. xbox was collecting dust, awaiting my return. the Wii still functioning with an all new tv for itself, and a PS3! paradise.. XD

First day, we went out for lunch with my grandaunt and her entire family. She kept insisting my uncle to bring my sis and I around, and so he did.

That's my uncle. Same age as I am.

After walking around with nothing to do, we met up with Zilin, who was out with his family, Daryl, and Krystle's family. The 3 of use were like lost kids. Anyway we later on splitted up, the boys went for LAN-ing ( or what we call going to the CC ), while the others went for chicken rice.

Next day, Jonathan Yang brought the 4 of us ( Daryl, Krystle, My sis and I) to sentosa. yeah, we've been there before, but who cares, go again la! LOL.
We met up at our MRT station and met up with a few others on the way.
I didn't sleep well the previous night, so I wasn't feeling very well that day.
We met up with Timotheus and his little korean cousin Changmini! ( I still don't know how to spell his name) First impression everyone had one changimini: must be a girl! LOL!
Alan poon came along and we had our breakfast.
Oops, I forgot Eliza. X)

Jon took this with his camera. Wonder why the lighting is so yellowish..

We met David after that and went straight to sentosa. It was crowded. It's like going for the.. Haji thingy.. where millions of pilgrims run around that black-colour-box-looking structure and start stomping on each other. After entering sentosa we met Benjamin and Mitchell.
We walked around the underwater world then went to the beach. We brought frisbee, volleyball and football. we practically played everything. I was shivering after the beach as it was raining lightly. I shivered all the way finding everything warm enough for me to hug then we entered the air conditioned arcade room and restaurants. D=We had expensive chinese dinner with many more other LAP youths. I was too sick to eat much and ended up taking a super long nap during dinner.

Group picutre at sentosa with Tim getting hit in the jackpot.

Next day, we joined the LAP congregation for sunday worship. I was still sick, down with fever and headache and stomach problems. Nice place they had. The toilets were interesting though XD We had lunch down the street and went to david and Isaac's place for the xbox360! alright! we played rockband and guitar hero until we got bored. Timotheus had to bring his little cousin all around. he doesn't seem too happy about changmini XD

Next day we met up and hung out at david's place again. more xbox-ing. then we headed out to meet most of the LAP youths to have dinner and watch Avatar 3D. the show was.. um.. 7/10? I don't know. Just not below average. =) I had my stomach pain the entire day. >=(

The few of us after the movie. The rest ran away for their supper.

Tuesday, the last day in singapore. I woke up, no more fever but my stomach condition remained unchanged. Tim brought changmini and met up with daryl, eliza, my sis and I and we hung out at Jurong point. Almost won a PS3 at the arcade. ALMOST! and it happened twice.. or was it thrice? GAAAAAAH! You have no idea how much we emo-ed over that near victory..

That's changmini playing the block stacking game to win the PS3

We quickly hurried back without having lunch and went to our bus station. we arrived in time. justin came to send us off too.

It was sad. but yeah.. We had to leave.

This is changmini, Tim's cousin from Korea. He'll be sticking with Tim wherever he goes for one month.

He's only 11 and he can beat Tim at arm wrestling.

His favourite game: Rock, scissors, paper! If you lose to him, his punishment is a big THWACK on your forehead by his one finger.

Almost every guy was his victim. LOL.

He walks around with his camera like a real tourist, half the time trying to take pictures of people and claim them to be scandalous pictures.

Funny chubby kid whom you can hear laughing most of the time.

Punch Alan!

I fell sick the day after we arrived in singapore. Had fever for a few days and slowly the headache came along. Worst of it all, I had stomach pains. I couldn't seem to digest my food. I abstained from eating heaving meals as it would result me going to toilet for a loooooooong time. From having meals every 3 hours, I started eating only twice a day. Within 3 days, I loss 2 kgs. D=

That's me on the Jurong bus showing the stupid I-dunno-what-you-call-it face. Little did I know I was sitting on my halfway eaten kaya balls T.T

We took this after boarding the bus. Timotheus caught styling his hair!

That's the end of our singapore trip.. there might be updates. lol.bye!

Dispersing clouds

There comes a time when the mind tends be too imaginative to the extent that everything thought about in the head is indeed reality.
Thus, we end up fogging ourselves from the real world.

Last day in Singapore already.
My bus leaves at 4.
Probably see you peeps online around 9p.m
*hopes for a welcome home dota-match* XD

Bye!

And I Just Hope You Know

I can't say what I wanted to say because what is now isn't the appropriate time to say it.
Saying it would mean that there would be no difference at all.
It's not something new but it is something gone through before.
And for the same reasons, things remain the way they have been.

Been fighting over the greens and the colours that ought not be there.
Trying even when failure wins half the time.

Didn't know what I was going through until I saw them
And the reason for going through what i'm going through?
Stupid unvalid reasons that is for reasons unknown.

I've been clinging and sticking for too long.
Long enough to make leaving hard
Even just for moments.
If it is real, if it is true,
letting go ,if it is the right thing, wouldn't be hard.
But it all comes down to the fact that I've been thinking too much.
I never thought it'd be this way, but it seems there's no changing what has happened.
It's not easy to know and to realize
But do at least tell me if anything were to change.
Tell me nothing but the truth that I may see and not doubt.

Too random post. Just spilling. X)
I'll update my blog properly once I'm back from singapore
bye!

Ticking strap-on time bomb.

If you don't defuse it before time runs up, you won't see its victim anymore.
Silently..

Weakened but fighting

Painful. Don't let them come back. Not again.

Only In Dreams

Like words in a book,
my thoughts are in my mind,
just that the words in my book
are all swirled and twisted.
If this goes on,
I'll have to throw it away,
start from scratch of rewritting another.

Maybe I've been too foolish to not see if whatever I know is indeed true or not..
Maybe I've been trying too hard,
Maybe I've not even tried.
Maybe I've been expecting too much..
Hoping too much..
Dreaming too much.

I'm throwing myself in front of you

SPM over already. yeaaah..
You can consider me free all the time.
Well, almost all the time actually.

There are a couple more things left for this holiday that is planned already.
Hopefully there are many more unplanned ones coming up. =D

Monday:
Alvin would be coming 1 day earlier than planned due to certain reasons. =P
Monday would also be our first.. omega Leo club meeting. Didn't expect quite a few to still be interested in Leo. From our previous batch from La Salle, at least 5 of us are really interested to join the club. why not? =D

Tuesday:
Lagoon. Needs no elaboration. X)

Wednesday:
I might join some of the others at bukit Cahaya. They were planning to go cycling.. and swimming ( well of course if there TRULY is a pool there. LOL)

Thursday:
If we still have the strength and time, yeah, futsal AGAIN. hahahaha.

Friday:
The long awaited pain bal-.. i mean.. paintball =D it's going to be fun because the game doesnt end until you wipe out everyone(which includes your own team mates XD)

The next monday would be our annual YDP. Wondering if it's going to be better than last year's.

The rest of the days left would be for repairing my bike, daydreaming, and then.. studying? HAHAHA. Nah, won't touch a book till next year. I wonder where the rest of the holidays after YDP would go to..

This could be the last mistake
That I would ever wanna do.

That's all.
Sorry no pictures for quite a few months now.
Camera died in June.
R.I.P yellow one. XD

Bye!

Like a pen running out of ink, I run out of words.

It has to come for it to end

Tomorrow is the 8th of December 2009.
The big day we form 5's have been waiting for.
THE LAST DAY OF SPM!
*crickets chirp away*
Yes, the last day.
and the last paper?

CHEMISTRY.
It's not as bad as having history as the last paper.
It was 3 and a half weeks ago when we all first sat for our first SPM paper.
Time passed by so quickly, it's like SPM just begun.
Now it's about to end.


No matter how far something seems, we'll reach it eventually.
We'll have to face it.
SPM seemed so far away a decade ago.
Now it's ending.. in 21 hours.
Time is still ticking..
SPM isn't over yet, no celebration until paper 3 is done and over.
We'll read, we'll study, we'll nerd the best we can just to make the last day the best one.
It will not only be the last day of SPM, but our last day in school with our uniforms, our very last day as a Form 5.
vamos a hacer que valga la pena.

Miss those active prefect days..

If you knew what was on my mind

When words fail to be spoken,
actions fail to be taken,
if still not knowing how or when,
it'll all come to a dead end.

This isn't Sparta but this still is madness.

It's all madness.

DC-ed from dota matches for more than 8 times the past week.
Got stuck at the same inverted step of my 5X5 cube 3 times in a row.

PC is dying slowly.. lagging at everything I do.

Is this the speed 2GB RAM is supposed to give?

Missed futsal. AGAIN.

I've been reading chemistry notes on the very same page for half an hour.

Did the information on that page enter my brain for integration and processing?

That I doubt so..

I think chemistry is going to be a gigantic flop.

After spm, everything's going to be a big disaster.

Yes, I am extremely pessimistic at this very moment.

I'm going to go punch the ugly bag now.

Hope it helps.

Bye

if you have time, and you're bored. check this out
http://www.nattawat.org/viewtopic.php?t=20680

The big numbers are getting smaller.

I can't see. Tell me what's going on.

Were Those Just Words?

It's the final subject: química!
Physics was the.. most screw up paper ever.
I found out I had 3 mistakes for paper 1 just 5 minutes after the paper..
Paper 2, it went okay. But I came out demotivated.
How to explain? I just came out like that for no apparent reason.
I came out 20 minutes early for paper 3.
Even the drive back home was.. a super long one.

Started chemistry revision yesterday.
Need to feel confident.
We'll all be boosted after our extra chem class X)
So fortunate to have this class coming up.

Haven't been feeling really well.
Pains here and there.
I've been forgetting to do so many necessary stuff.
My neurones are depleting. D:
I even forgot to bring my SPM slip yesterday for physics.

Chua is asking for pudge wars.. uh oh!
Time to run.
Haha.
BYE!

Maybe one day.. but I won't know if that day has come.

We'll get past the things that seem so far away

Biology is over..
IT IS OVER!
Now i'm left with physics and chemistry..
They seem so close.. too close for comfort..

Biology..
We started they day off with paper 2.
First time reading so much before the paper..
This was my most lastminute-unprepared-underestimated-long-forgotten subject.
Section A of paper 2 was hopeless..
Section B, was kind of okay.. Had to use the emergency technique, that is writing all the essays just in case I lose marks on some..
Paper 1.. =D You people will see the easiest past year paper 1 for biology comes from 2009.
HAHAHAHA.
Paper 3.. I managed to finish it in time.. and section A was VERY similar to what Mr. Sundram taught us when he came to our school to give us some tips on SPM.

Oh, and I just had a haircut last Friday..
it was supposed to be trimmed slightly..
I sat down and told the guy "cut short abit.." in Mandarin.
he ended up cutting extremely short.
I look almost bald now.. like I was last october?
Now I have to plant grass on my head..

8 more days then I'll be able to sleep soundly for once. X)
I'll blog something not so boring next time.
Bye!

Just an illusion, or reality?

It seems so far away now.
The hope of getting straight A's.
You might be wondering why straight A's
when all I do is dota, slack, and panic.
I aim high.
I was told to.
I was so confident at one point during SPM that I'll eventually get straight A's.
But nah, doesn't seem possible..
I lost my confidence just yesterday when I opened my bio textbook.
This feeling is worse than the feeling I had the day before Sejarah paper.
many times worse than that..

It's like I lost all my stamina when I'm the first to see the finish line.
Haha.
Time to go study!
Bye!

If you deny your past, you will repeat it again

Take your mask off.
Just take it off.
It's on your face even if you don't think it is..






3 subjects left.
Bio, physics and chem.
I'm running out of time
which explains why my MSN isn't online anymore.
And there's no more dota.. for now.
3 subjects.. it went really fast for our previous 7 subjects.
I'm glad it went better than expected.
I'm so looking forward to next Sunday's Skytrex thingy, the day after spm, and the weeks after spm.
Hope to see everyone again after SPM. X)
It'll be over soon..
bye!

The Events of Reversed Sequence

He was so young.
Too young I'd say.
Imagine having to lose a family member just 8 years old.
I can't imagine Wei Xiang's family's emotions now.
No matter how hard we all try, we don't feel what they feel.
Until we lose someone just like how they did.
He was gone too soon.
It all happened too sudden.
I don't know him much, but I always see him on Sundays.
The young boy who looked just like his dad.
Carrying his backpack around, hyped up.
Running around.
Who knew the next time I actually saw him was actually when he's already in the casket.
He went too soon.
I never got to know him.
I didn't know we even share the same birthday.

It began to drizzle as the funeral service began.
The wind blew.
This weather felt cold.. for the first time this year.
This isn't the first time the cold weather actually felt cold.
It has happened before 2 years ago.
It was just as sad as it was 2 years ago when Benjamin left.
It feels really sad to not be able to see someone like him around.
He sat for his PMR, but never made it to get his results.
He would've been sitting the SPM with the rest of us, but he's not.
He's somewhere else better.
Somewhere Wei Xiang is now.
Goodbye=)

________________________________________________________

Could this be the reverse sequence of events?
The events that once took place now going in reverse?
It's just an illusion created by my mind.
It's not going in reverse. It just seems like it.
I'll fix this.
I'll find a way while I still can.
Just before this year ends.

Tomorrow is modern maths paper.
planning to flip through after dinner.
Moral on Tuesday.
Almost done with memorizing.
Add maths on Wednesday: GG-fied.
after Wednesday I'll be burying my head in my Bio books.

I hope what I read was what I think it's meant for.
When I don't speak,
I want to.
But I just don't know what to say.
What do I say?

Life's Last Foe

Young or old,
happy or sad,
we still have to leave this world one day.. anyday.
Are we prepared?

It's never been so cold after the rain since then..

Goodbye little one.

Won't you let me know?

If events are winding backwards, it has to stop.
If everything is heading somewhere new,
at least tell me where to.
Tell me straight 'cause I'm tired
of speaking in riddles and in words of confusion.

Sejarah paper is finally over.
We'll just have to wait and see what's the result.
Tomorrow is EST.
Don't know what is there to study for EST. =/
Hoping it'll be raining tomorrow with strong wind.
It's been quite sometime since..

I should've, but I didn't. I could've, but I didnt either.

First day went.. okay.
Tomorrow is sejarah paper 2 and both english papers.
I've been studying for weeks to build a foundation required only for 2 days.
I didn't want to end up getting a big fat E for my history again.
But I guess A would be.. almost mission impossible.

I'll be back after 4.30 tomorrow.
Hope the weather would be "fine" enough for my long awaited favourite "activity".
Heh.

I'll go get a few winks of sleep now.
If I don't reach back home in one piece tomorrow, it means I screwed history paper up.
Chaoz.

So Leave Me at the Roadside

This phase.
It's not familiar as it used to be.
I dislike it how it's starting to become.
Maybe I don't.
I don't know.

I don't think you see the places inside me that I find you,
And I don't know how we separate the lies here from the truth;
And I don't know how we woke up one day and somehow thought we knew
exactly what we're supposed to do.

SPM.
Luck? Nah. Don't wish me luck.
Luck is just an illusion created by our minds. LOL
Wish me well for my predatory instincts.
I'll just make it through better that way.
HAHAHA.

Last Minute Intelligence.

Lost my sense of direction,
Don't know where to go.
Can't feel where I'm being pulled to,
There isn't just one current but more.
If only my senses could regain their functions,
so that I can find my way back to where it began.

Spm is just in 2 and a half days.
I'm so gonna die. haha.
I haven't been motivated enough to study, especially for the past week.
Only flipped through my history text book. wee~ *shuts book*
I'm different from so many people.
They take UPSR lightly, like they didn't need to study the month before.
PMR, I was the only one studying like mad.
But when it comes to SPM, heh.. *snoozes away*

Sometimes I tend to have this thought in my mind.
It doesn't matter how many A's I get for SPM.
I don't really care.
But what I found out is that I'm capable of being what I want to be.
It's just a little to late for hardwork.
Last minute work is just going to get you more stressed out.
I'll just read and flip through to see what can I absorb.
I'll go in to the exam hall with what I've actually learnt and properly understood throughout form 4 and 5.
I hate memorizing and studying for the sake of the exams.
The only books that interest me are subjects that actually help me in my future.
explains why i HATE history.
It's no use unless I become a teacher, or anything on the history ed. field.

However I found out that.. I've never been not lazy since I was in standard 3. XD
I rarely pay attention in class. Those times you see me sitting upright with a pen in my hand while reading my book..
don't be fooled, I'm just having my nap. X)
I have an extremely short attention time span.
Unless it's something really interesting.
I can read a few lines, start playing with my fingers, look out the window.
I can never concentrate for more than.. a minute? I'll keep looking around for something to happen. hahahaha.

Being able to memorize the history textbook isn't intelligence.
It means that the educational ministry is being mean to those with limited memory like me. =(
Honestly, I forget things very quickly.
But I don't forget people =)

That's all I'm gonna post about.
But wait, I don't think all that was what I was supposed to post about.
Nevermind.. I'll try to remember and edit this post another day. hahahaha.

To all SPM-ers, all the best.
See you all after it's over
Bye!

The End is Nigh..

I got so bored of studying already.
Screw Spm. hahaha.
instead I looked up the net for 2012.
The thing that has everyone chatting about.

After reading about and discussing about this 2012 topic, it is abit convincing.
It sounds true.
it looks true.
It feels like it has been backed up with alot of scientific evidence.
But is it for real? *scratches head until no hair is left*

First thing people would think about 2012: the world is going to end.
Why? Just so you all know, the Mayan calendar counts by twenties. it begins with 0.0.0.0.0 and when 20 days are up, it rounds up to 0.0.0.1.0. get it? so when the Mayan calendar just ended at their count of 13.0.0.0.0. (which is the 21st December 2012), many believed that it was the end of the world.
That's the biggest assumption ever made by anyone. Using your common sense and logical thinking, if your calendar ends on the 31st of December 2009, it means it's the end of the world! Judgement day!
yeah right..
It's actually just the end of the year. the next day would be just another year.
The Mayan calendar either winds back to 0.0.0.0.0. or they just go on until 20.0.0.0.0. 20 and 13 is the root of their numerical system and therefore there's just two possiblity that it goes on or the calendar restarts. simple.

Some people are also influenced by the news that some planet ( either Eris or planet X) would come in collision with Earth, causing the destruction of the world.
Nonsense! >=D this is just utter rubbish.
even claimed by NASA, this will not happen. Why is it so? Eris, or planet X, is located somewhere outside our solar system further than pluto. Imagine a planet that far
having to collide with our planet in 3 years and one month's time. Eris is 3.66 trillion miles from Earth. It has to travel at ultra speed if it has yet to leave its current position.
BUT if Eris is already on its way to collide with Earth, it would already be really close. and we would be able to see it with our naked eyes. Another statement by NASA is that the closest distance between Earth and Eris would be 4 billion miles.
conclusion is that this "collision" theory is already flawed. GG-fied.

This collision with Earth idea is sometimes associated with planet Nibiru. Nibiru is a myth, with no basis in fact. The images some post on the net claiming the existance of Nibiru is just a hoax.
Or some may believe that planet X actually exists. Planet X isn't Eris. dont mix them up. And if there is really a planet X, it would've had a name. Terms such as this Planet X are used by astronomers and scientists when they are in search of this planet that hasnt been spotted, yet they believe it has to be nearby somewhere..

others start believing in the theory that on 21st december 2012, all the planets in the solar system would align and this would somehow impact our Earth. Each December the Earth and sun align with the approximate center of the Milky Way Galaxy but that is an annual event of no consequence. "There are no planetary alignments in the next few decades, Earth will not cross the galactic plane in 2012, and even if these alignments were to occur, their effects on the Earth would be negligible. "
What is everyone thinking? has everyone watched the cartoon movie Hercules too much where a lunar/solar eclipse opens the gates of hells' prison to release the monsters? GROW UP!
When there's a solar/lunar eclipse occurs, does anything miraculous happen? Nothing! not at all..
But some of you would argue back saying "that's just the earth, moon and sun aligning. if every planet in our solar system aligns, it'll cause.. BLA BLA BLA. "
Let me tell you something. if the planets all align, and something BIG and DESTRUCTIVE happens, I can score straight A1s for SPM just by skipping stones. Seriously.. we're all acting like how the Incans did when they saw the eclipse. We laugh at them when we see that they pray to the sun when a lunar/solar eclipse takes place. What about our later generation? are they going to point and laugh at their ancestors for believing nonsense as such? seriously, I'll join them.

For all those that believe so much and are manipulated by the net, just so you know..
"There apparently is a great deal of interest in celestial bodies, and their locations and trajectories at the end of the calendar year 2012. Now, I for one love a good book or movie as much as the next guy. But the stuff flying around through cyberspace, TV and the movies is not based on science. There is even a fake NASA news release out there..."
- Don Yeomans, NASA senior research scientist

Don't be fooled by the hoax over the internet. There are so many people out there in the world with no proper standing. Just a lousy hoax can blow them down and they start believing in nonsense as such.
Remember about the predictions and prophesies made by countless of people and "prophets" on the end of the world. some prophesies were just plain general and yet they still convince many. Sadness. haha.
Some claimed year 2000 to be the end of the world. see how it didnt take place?
Some believed in the Da Vinci Code. Some took this novel as their bible. See how Dan Brown categorised his book under Fiction? And his novel was for entertainment purposes. He didnt write a documentary, but a novel. yeah. NOVEL.

Don't be fooled by the hoax. We are all educated people. With our own religion and with science. You should know that anybody can type anything on the net and claim it to be a fact when it actually is just a hoax.
Intelligent people know where the other people's weakspots are.
Intelligent people know where to start the wildfire, they start it where humidity is at its weakest.
So once they start the fire, it spreads in seconds. And you end up with a forest fire.
If you're weak in faith and don't have a proper stand, you'll end up being part of that wildfire.
You'll burn.. and die.. HAHAHA. sounds like Muse's Take A Bow.

I can't say the world would come to an end later than 2012, in fact it could happen anytime. That is what I as a Christian believe in. I believe that the world can end anytime. We just don't know when.
We Christians believe when Jesus comes again, it would be the end of the world.. from that moment onwards.
According to 1 Thessalonians 5:2 -For you yourselves know perfectly that the day of the Lord so comes as a thief in the night.
Do you know which day or what time a thief comes? By the time you find out, he's either on his way in or he has already departed. They don't come in a hullabaloo. they come quietly, silently, with undetectable stealth (except for noob thieves, they trip over furniture)

If you still think 2012 is the end of the world, why don't you just start on whatever you like to do? Rob, kill, skip school, etc etc
Oh! and flunk SPM! then wait for 21st december 2012. after the 21st has come and passed away, we'll be laughing at you like how kids point at monkeys in the zoo.

haha. i typed so much I dunno what did i actually type.
I have to go and study!
Good luck all form 5s. Heh.
And all those that are planning to screw spm up like me, have fun!
Chaoz.

You don't find me anywhere

Doing something you've always loved to do
At the same time, fearing what you've always feared.
It's different now.
Things change.
Times change.
And trust me, some people change too.

If they fit back, it'll be unlike before.

Obvious, but it's okay if you don't know it yourself.
As long as I already know.
It's just the feeling of being unsure after being so sure.

White in pitch black.

Space so big you could let the whole world pass through.
Time so short, but feels so long.
Words spoken but for another meaning.
Things done to get things undone.
decision made to contradict itself.
A post with rows of words, but literally containing no meaning at all.
Empty words of an empty mind of an empty brain of an empty soul of an empty world.

Bended or broken?

There was always the right decisions.
The decisions that I can take freely.
The ones I can take unconditionally.
I always had that choice.
Unlike everybody else,
I turn them down.
All the time.
I chose this harder path.
There's no explanation.
I'm not everyone.
I'm me.
I'm someone.
someone, not in the crowd on the clear path.
but someone alone on another route.
Where it leads to, who knows?
But I chose this path.
Someday we'll eventually find out why.
Find out why logic has failed to explain me.

No, I don't like me.

I found those lines in a way familiar.
'Cause it was your situation that seemed that way.
Not mine.
Did you not know?

When you leave, we just know that you'll be back, again.

I can now see the sun rising across the horizon
Rising up as its rays burst through the thick clouds from yesterday's storm.
The morning breeze brought the feeling of comfort back.
Maybe the feeling was just there.
Just unnoticed.

And When We Go, Don't Blame Us

To the person whom the song says about us all dying, we're meant for the flies:

Weak.
you fail to make yourself look pathetic.
Stop overreacting and get over it all.
your knowledge about what we should know is so shallow.
Are you that stubborn?
Move on with life not dig up all the healing wounds.
Are you going for a courtcase that you're going to win or are you trying to fix it all?
Open your eyes.
You're not on the right side either.
Look at yourself and stop commenting on others.
I hate having to get angry, but it's too late to stop that.
I hope you read this soon enough, 'cause I've really had enough.

Waiting for the Rainbow

I've started so many things and screwed them up halfway.
The things that happen, they happened because I made wrong decisions.
I wish I could fix it all, because I'm tired.
Each day I wake up and the weight of my guilt and regret doubles.
If only..
These two words are usually mentioned when something you did went wrong and you've thought over your mistake, telling yourself that it could've been much better like this, or like that.
I repeat this words everyday.
Would there be and end to it?


The storm seems like it has ended.
has it?
I want it to end.

Hate Me

I didn't know.
I should've known.
But I didn't try to find out.
True character and personalities of a person are shown when a situation gets critical.
I ran away.
I ignored.
I tore us apart.
I was nothing but selfish.
I said this at the beginning of this year, but it should've been for this time.
I just wanted you to know who I really am.
Now that we've both found out who I really am, we both know I was never good enough in the first place.
I'm sorry.
I think apologizing for this matter is pointless now.
But I'm really sorry. Truly sorry.
Go be the better person you are capable of being without me.
I'm just your bad memory.
If you'd want to, you could erase it all too.
If you think that's best for you.
As for me, I won't forget it all.
Good or bad, I won't forget.
Never.

Time Inside Out.

2 years ago.
It all seemed fine. It was really fine.
It was the best start of the new year.
You left. I moved on. I tried to. Struggled each day, hoping all the time that I might eventually get over you;
Months went on, I injured my wrist.
That marked the end of any wrist related sports for me;
Time passed, I sprained my cervical vertebrae somehow;
The end of the year came, you left us, Ben;
Last year, you left.
This home became so silent, it was like entering an empty house.
You changed. Everything changed;
I knew I was capable enough, but I lost the 2 post I tried so hard to get.
I worked so hard since the start of probation, since my very first interview;
I lived a year of confusion, thinking that everything was perfectly fine.
I was blinded by my own ignorance;
you came along. We spent all the time we could together.
But I tore us apart. Confused.
I still wished you'd still talk to me;
Time was sacrificed just hoping that I'd be able to lead this two clubs throughout the year.
You ruined it all by abolishing them two.
I was left with nothing;
Everything seemed to get better, until you tore everything apart.
Under this roof, nothing will ever be the same again.
You made this one month I have left into a day;
Two years. two long years.
Seemed like an ascend, until the great fall came.
If you know who you are, I'm glad you know.

Dear Ben,
It's been almost two years now.
We've been through so many things in our lives together.
Sunday school, UPSR, PMR, english writing competitions.
But it had to end there. 'Cause you were called back early.
It's been two very long years.
It seemed like I was alone all the time.
You were the only one in our clique that was the same age as me.
It has been awfully quiet being the only person walking down this path.
SPM is coming up really soon. I don't think I might make it through.
I always wished I didn't have to do things alone.
Even if it were my choice or not, I'd have to do everything alone.
I wish things could change,I pray each day that all these didn't have to go on.
I wished that I wasn't alone. That there was someone who has some things in common with me.
Hope to see you soon.
The wait won't be long.

I love the gloomy weather, with all the strong winds, the cool sensation it brings.
But I don't like it when it starts raining inside instead.
When everything inside turns dark and gloomy.
When there's no sunshine, no warmth, no comfort, no shelter.
I can't see through this weather.
I can't see if there's anymore hope left.
I can't see anything. Anything at all.

Foundation Demolition

I opened my eyes, awoken by a sharp sound. I couldn't tell immediately what that sound was, but I knew through my instincts that it was not something good. I thought if I were still dreaming. Could it be just a part of my nightmare, but there was no doubt, I was wide awake, facing reality.
Over the years, I thought everything would run smoothly despite the ups and downs. But this time, it was otherwise. Walking on the normal path in life, knowing that the path 1 mile ahead of me was straight and safe, I shut my eyes. The next instant, I'm falling into a pit. As I fall, my mind starts to wonder, how deep is this pit? hoping every second that I'll finally crash onto the bottom of the pit, I still continue to fall.
You dug this pit here, it wasn't meant for me but for someone else, yet you went on digging it there. It is an extremely deep pit, but have you ever thought about those innocent lives that fall into that pit unknowingly and falling to their death? All you cared about was for your own good. I hate you.
You're immature. It's okay to protect yourself sometimes, but not to this extent. You're mocking everyone, hurting everyone around somehow.
I wish you could just take a look into the mirror and take a look. See what you've done. See how your childish ways has distorted this chapter of the lives of the people around you. You know so little, and claimed there's no need to know more. Do you see what we see? We know the situation you're in, but your vision is so narrow. You're not sober enough to see. Do you see what I see?
I don't want to hate you. I really don't. Never. But what you're doing is making me hate you. You're forcing me to hate you. Are you aware of that? are your eyes opened enough to peek from under the shell that you've spent your life under?
I could leave it all behind and lead a better life, but I choose not to. I've been taught to stay and stand sober. To stand firm to face whatever comes my way. Are you able to do that? Or are you just going to give in to your old ways and your emotions?

I wished today never existed. This is my first time wishing for something like that. I truly wished today never did exist.

When 1+1= Something Easier

I'm not supposed to be blogging. heh
But i'll just blog cause I'm.. dying to actually. =P
It's the start of July now and trials are just round the corner.
I'm doomed. T_______T


Last month, Danny, Kang Siang, Frederick and I participated in I-challenge.
Yeah, of course we made it into the finals alongside Ben, Aaron, Zhi Peng and Ivan's team.
As long as I'm there, we're sure to enter finals laaa~ *kembang*
Support us in our path to victory in the finals.
for those from La Salle, pick a side..
Hydroneptunes or Greenity. *ebil laugh*
Here's the link.. support us if you can.
Vote in the poll that's in the blog.
Leave your names in the cbox.
We'll help get you a soulmate if you do that. LOL
http://unityforagreenergreen.blogspot.com/


Okay.. After Forum, most of us from the outgoing BOD are really happy this year.. cause we have around 30 awards altogether. compared to the interact clubs' handfull only?
Yeah.. speaking about interactors..
I'm not bad mouthing, I'm just being straightforward about the truth.
The new batch got really cheating.
Yeah.. so cheating, they decided to forge fake tickets for Leo Club's Youth Day.
See what shame they bring to their club's name.
A grand event, supported by Ministry of sound, and all sorts of local bands, they still dare to forge tickets and sell it for less than half the price.
Whoever you are who came up with that idea, I'll punch your teeth out if I ever see you and if I know it was you.
Lucky that person was dumb enough to not know who was the president of Leo and ended up telling him about the fake tickets.


Last Saturday, few of us went for RIMUP programme.
Joint project with STAR school.
I've got a few pictures but I'm just lazy to elaborate. =P

Last day before the looooong talk on Effective Microorganisms.

We all thanked Lion Kee Oi for helping our club so much. He doesn't seem happy. LOL

Greenity+a inti student helper?

the 9 teams that are in for the finals of I-challenge

On the journey back from I-challenge.

That's all for now..

until the next urge I have to blog,

Ciao =)

Hey Monday; 6 Months

This would be my last post until my SPM is over? or maybe just for a long time.

Firstly, I've done very little throughout these past 2 weeks of holidays.
~failed my undang =P
~gotten my leo outstanding director award
~gotten my leo outstanding newsletter award
~gotten my leo proficiency vest
~organised games that didn't bore people out
~stayed up for more that 24 hours (but still fell asleep during lunch the next day =P)
~threw a stone/dead coral that skipped more than 6 times *bangga*
~snorkelled 2 metres underwater to disturb clown fishes
~got a sore throat and a broken voice at the same time, in other words, only being able to talk with no sound. lol
~gave something to someone *hides*
~not feed in a dota game
~made it to somewhere XD
~solve the rubik's 3X3 in 1.01.
~learn to solve the rubik's 5X5 in less that half an hour
~fall asleep while talking and after being given something.. *corneeeh*

yeah.. that's about it?
If anyone sees me online, help me to not be online by encouraging me to get offline. lol.
I'm not supposed to be online anymore.
tomorrow..
is the start of another school semester.
another day to get screwed for not updating the prefects board.
another day.. to get screwed for not cutting hair. hee..
and most importantly.. tomorrow is bimil's birthday (:

It's 3 months tomorrow.
And yeah.. you've said everything I had to say. (:
6 months.. a really long time.
like you said, 6 months is from the time since camp till today.
That long..
but after that 6 months, when we make it through..
it'll all be different..
the future is not for us to predict.. not within our control.
But, we can only stay strong.
hope. wish. dream. and continue walking in this dream.
our dream that came true.
Happy 3 months, Bimil (:

to someone :
chu know that I love chu. very much. now, and always =)
ilcsm, Zee. =)

Onion, Coffee, and Ice Cream.

Words.. Can't explain anything.
anything at all that's in my head.
And it's getting worse.
I don't know how far it'll go..
Something doesn't feel right at all..
what something?
the same old "i don't know.." would somehow fight it's way out of my mouth again and again.
I don't see myself saying the opposite of that anymore..

I just got back from YES and midvalley.
About YES, this year was alot better.
More people and more fun.
Games were much better, even when I wasn't conducting them on the first day.
I went only on Monday night.
I spent half my Monday eating and talking to recover my voice.
Tuesday was a long day for all of us, but more like a day that didn't end for me.
First was because I was running about with Daryl and TzeWei digging our minds to organize the games.
We ended up with 3 games just within a session.
I can safely say that it all went just fine.
And after the games, it all ended up with the usual.. um.. japanese water festival? LOL
Alvin calls it that..
It's like becoming a tradition for YES.
After dinner, we had our singsparation where we learnt about 4 new songs.
We didnt perfect them but just managed to grab hold of the basics.
After singsparation, we all headed for supper at the usual Esso mamak.
Imagine the stares we got.
People were wondering why is there suddenly a group of 25 people in the mamak.
After supper, we all sat in front of the projector screen and watched Unborn and Coming Soon via Christine's laptop.
Unborn was.. funny and stupid.
Coming soon was.. suspenseful and funny.
we were practically reading the subtitles throughout the show..
all the funny names.. supporting mulberry? teaching an elder brother? die small? LOL
and the last line of the movie.. you want to see me die, be? LOOOOL
around 10 of us stayed up throughout the night.
We played the usual games.. until 6.
then i left for somewhere for someday.
the rest are just memories in our minds. =)

i'm sitting for undang tomorrow.
Hope i pass..
it'll be the last of my hols..

I'll sign off now
Chaoz.

Edit;

I've found a couple of pics of forum.. Pics from YES... I only have one. a retarded one. I won't post it up here though.. so that means.. very FEW pics I have to upload..

This was taken on the last day.. zhipeng was scratching his face while Ivan was busy texting away.. ZhiPeng and Ivan? LOL (inside joke)

This was during our gala night.. notice the two guys in suits and shades? the left one looks retarded..

Everywhere I See

My first post after.. how long? 2 months plus?
Yeah, I've not been blogging as actively as before.
But i'll try to keep it updated as frequently as I can..

The 3 weeks plus of exams ended.
Yeah, it was both easy and hard at the same time.
Might probably fail something.. heeh.
Oh, and Kevin came the day before my physics paper.
For those who don't know who kevin is, he is..
ahh.. lazy to explain. :D
We all went to perhentian on the last day exam for family vacation.
The moment we stepped into the resort, I was really shocked to see that we are the only Asian people there. the only ones.
It was fun there. yeah.
I learnt how to skip stones better, snorkel up to 2 metres underwater, fight sea monsters and friends. LOL.
okay the last part was crap.
But yeah, we stayed there for 4 days and then came back slightly burnt.

Wednesday, I went midvalley with someone. X)
my sister and kevin came along too -____-
but yeah.. it was.. a long day.
anywaaaay, we met up with tim and clement and came home.
boring ol' home.
Next day all of them went to Langkawi while i had so much fun and excitement at a 5 hour talk for my undang test thingy.
waste of my precious timee..
I fell sick that day.
Flu and all.. heeh.
Next day was forum.

Forum, compared to last year, is really bad.
Imagine bathing in the evening, rushing for time.
and the entire hotel's electricity cuts off, and comes back after a while.
Not so bad right?
Imagine that happening 7 times.
The gala night was.. GAY.
totally.
The banquet night was better though.
Our club managed to get all outstanding awards.
project awards weren't so good.
But we made history with Ben and Kevin getting Top Leo and Top vice pres.
first time we had outstanding newsletter award?
altogether probably 25+ awards, didnt really count properly.
But we did our best compared to previous years. =)
Bus trip back was just as bad as it was there.
Those teachers, I tell you..
When everyone was already back home, we just arrived at subang.
That's how slow our bus is..

I haven't unpacked.
I lost my voice.
You can hear alot of weezing and squeeking if you hear me talk properly.
Blaaah, YES starts today, and I'm not there.
I'll probably go tmr.

oh, and before I get off..
Happy Birthday Alvin Lee Yee Chang. =D
You're 17 now.
wait, you were already 17 since few days ago -_____-
my bad..
Happy belated birthday, buddy.
I'll see you tmr.
and.. um.. play ping pong? XD

I'll sign out now.
Chaoz. =)

The Cat's Wail

It's Monday and I just got home from school.
Yeah, I'll blog today and not blog till the weekend comes again.
School was really.. boring? yeah.. that's the right word.
Reaaally boring. All I remembered was the mini Rubik's cube Danny brought and everything that happened in the maths lab.

I wasn't tired in school today despite having only 3 hours of sleep.
I was reading and youtube-ing at the same time.. lol.
I'm starting to read now..
picking up reading again like how I used to glue my eyes at the pages of the storybooks for hours while I was still in primary school.
It's no wonder my brain isn't developing like how it used to.

Oh, and I found out something on youtube yesterday.
There're this piano duo..
They're the Katzenjammer.
Just go google them up or look them up in youtube.
Search for Four Hands, One Piano, or Hall of the Mountain King or Carnival of the Animals.
Watch them play.. O.O

Yeah, I guess I'll have to get off this chair now..
Won't waste my time here.
Someone's away for bsb training. =D
Signing off,
Chaoz.

Ground Zero

Friday night we had a meeting at Sabash's place.

I wasn't there long.

But anyways, it's our first time meeting at a home for Leo.

Saturday morning I woke up late.

I gamed alot. :D

I won't be gaming till the mid year holidays.. probably won't have the time during that 2 week holidays..

Singsparation was at the KL congregation yesterday night.

We haven't had singsparation for a long time.

Not including the ones we have on the first Friday of every month though..

11 of us took the train to Sentul.

Christine came along when we reached Shah Alam.

That makes the 12 of us.

The singing was good. Reeally. Only to those who know how it all works and how it sounds like, then you'll know.. the rest who don't know, too bad laaa~

I think the next time we have something like that is during YES or YDP already..

can't wait for it actually. :D

There's futsal later.

And Zee's busy with unfinished homework. lol.

Oh, and my fastest time for the cube is 2 minutes and 20 seconds. T_____T still so long.. stupid cube getting stuck now and then.

I'll have to go study abit now..

Time to buck up. :D :D

oh, and I found a couple of.. retarded pictures..

Elaine, CheeKuan, ZhiPeng and I in '07's IU. When I used to wear braces.. yeaaah

Unity Prog. Commitee. Yeah, There's the balloon in my hand..

Kes membuli Ketua Pengawas with water balloon. lol

That was last Saturday's gathering. Me cutting the.. um.. cake? lol. Eric suddenly got lost and stood there..

I just found this. The youths that attended yesterday's singparation. Don't find meeeee.. i'm not there. =D

Signing off,
Chaoz.

Just Like Jack and Sally

I haven't touched my blog in days.
It's dying.. yeah. obviously dying.
I lost my mood to blog frequently.
Even weekly seems torturous.. lol

My monthly tests have just ended.
Not prepared for anything at all..
especially history paper.. you know what I mean. *wink wink*
Today is Good Friday btw.
the Christians and catholics are.. having something on which I have no idea what it is.. LOL
so called... yeah.

Seems like I haven't wished myself Happy Birthday..
but it also seems kind of late.. but who cares..
Happy Belated birthday myself. LOL
I haven't sat for undang or driving lessons.. I want to drive so badly.

My sister came back the 2 Thursdays ago.
Really explains the.. crappy spams in my cbox.
DONT READ THEM
She brought back goodieeeees too.. and the rubik's cube O___O
that cube is addictive.. and I didn't get to touch it for a week already..

I don't know what to blog about laaa..
probably spam my own blog.. lol.
*spam spam spam*
Mid year exams is in one month..
so soon.. bummer..
Youth day is coming too sooon..
can we make it on time?
yes? no? um? arh? =.=

I feel sad for you if you read this post..
this post filled with.. nothingness..
If you can even call it a post..

I'll go off now.
Chaoz.

The line that is etched in my mind,

the phrase that you can read.

I need not speak,

And say aloud those words.

The words that we spake of countlessly,

Well spoken already by actions.

The words written in dark blue and light blue,

Ma neun bogosipo.

Thoughts the Mind Can't Decode

Surprised to see this? don't kill me okay? D:

Dear Yeojahchingu,

Happy 17th Birthday. =)

I know I should've got you something for your birthday.

I hate not getting people's presents.

Especially yours.

I gave you the least I could.

The things I've never given anyone else before.

난 내 마음을 준 당신에게, 모두 내 관심, 내 사랑 ..

Things would've been different if we hadn't met..

But I'm really grateful we met.

I don't know what to say 'cause it's the thoughts that the brain can't decode nor speak out.

You've given me so many things that I myself am unable to come up with to give you.

Once again, Happy 17th Birthday=)

Have a good year ahead and all the best.

I hope you got your best birthday present already.

당신을 사랑합니다

당신의 남자 친구. =)

If You Were a Sailboat

I am blogging at irregular times..
from weekends to weekdays? lol.
This is probably because my past few weekends have been completely taken up by something else.. lemme try to recall okay? =D

Last Wednesday, I was supposed to cycle to Morib.
Cancelled. Too many ffk-ers... as usual.
It was raining too till 8 or 9.
For that entire day I went dunno where and got sunburned.
Don't ask me, I won't tell you.
Some thought I went to Pangkor like the others
Some thought I went to Morib
Some thought I played basketball in the afternoon sun.
Some just thought I was scalded with hot water.
Some thought I was burned by exposed radiation from the microwave oven.. actually nobody did la. LOL
Only those who know the truth shall know it.
The rest.. just hope that what I told you was indeed the truth. =P

Thursday I had my eyes all red.
Had to go everywhere as a nerd.
Not only my eyes were red actually, my sunburn was extreme.
Tight, red skin.
I was tortured in add maths class.

Friday we went to Sunway Pyramid.
Lucky we didn't go to Sunway Lagoon, or else I'll look like the char siew you eat with wantan mee? =_=
Those who went were Allan, Alvin, Christine, Ern Shern, Jae Wen, Joan, Kevin, Krystle, Mun Wai, Samuel, and me of course. lol.
Chye Leng didn't come. Her mom didn't allow her to go.
So.. for a few guys, I feel sorry for you. LOL.
Well the main reasons why we went Pyramid was firstly to have our final outing, especially for the form 5s : Alvin, Allan, Chye Leng, Kevin, Mun Wai and me.
It turned out to be celebrating Joan, Krystle and Christine's birthday.
Yeah.. those 3 noise-making musketeers..

Lucky all 3 of them have never been in my house together at the same time..

the roof would come down..

Anyway, Happy Belated Birthday to the 3 of you.

It'll be one of the last times I'll see everyone..until SPM is over?

Saturday I went with a couple of the usual Leos to the Joint Charity Carnival Bazaar at Metropolitan.

We went there empty handed.

No banner whatsoever.. so easy going eh?

The bazaar was worse that last year's.

It's just so saaaaad..

But lucky got profit la. lol.

After that was.. somedaaaaay.

Parents came and pick me up at 6.

I slept till 8?

That was Saturday. (:

Sunday male youths had to meet up.

Few turned up.

Singsparation is like first Friday of next month..

the 3rd of April.. =_=

I went snooping around and found Reub's picture blog.

And I found weeeeird pics. lol.

The youths at Sze Yin's B'day.

Year end gathering. My face looks fatter. O_O Alvin looks like Matt Damon. Samuel is.. I duno what was he doing. lol

Krystle posing while I was turning away to hide from the cam.

Blah. I didn't know Reuben was taking this one. LOL

I have to go now..Chaoz =D

001. Real Name: Bryant Lee
002. Nickname(s): -__-
003. Age: 16 going on 17.
004. Horoscope: Aries
005. Male or Female: Male
006. Elementary: SJK(c) Chuen Min
007. Middle School: SMK La Salle
008. High School: SMK La Salle
009. College School: You tell me..
010. Hair colour: blaaack.. daark brooown.. copper brown? dunno..
011. Long or Short: short
012. Loud or Quiet: both.. depending on when and where..
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans.
014. Phone or Camera: Phone.
015. Health Freak: Still am one..
016. Drink or Smoke: Never.
017.Do you have a crush on someone: Crush.. um.. um.. 어쩌면? =D
018. Eat or Drink: Eat.
019. Piercings: Up, down, left, right.. NOLA. not a single one.
020. Tattoos: None.
021. Social or Anti-Social: Anti-social laa..
022. Righty or lefty: Righty.
023. First piercing: 18 years ago.
024. First relationship: Um.. 2 years ago.
025. First Best Friend: Anslem Yeow.
026. First Award: Best attendance or was it.. dunno laa..
027. First Kiss: if I say I've never had one, can I skip the whole thing??
028. First Pet: Hamsters
029. First Big Vacation: Pulau Redang.
030. First Love at first sight: The very first playstation I saw.. O.O
031. First Big Birthday: 7th Birthday.
032. First Surgery: None.
033. First sport you joined: Basketball.
This or that.
034. Orange or Apple juice: Apple juice.
035. Rock or Rap: Rock.
036. Country or Screamo: country! =D
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Dunno la.. both also.. sama aje..
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: err.. Christina Aguilera?
039. Night or Day: Night.
040. Sun or Moon: Sun
041. TV or Internet: Internet. I'll feel lifeless without internet even for one daay..
042. Playstation or xbox: Playstation.
043. Kiss or hug: ask Bob.
044. Iguana or turtle: Iguanaa.
045. Spider or bee: Spider.. they're easier to kill.. LOL
046. Fall or spring: Fall.
047. Limewire or iTunes: iTunes.
048. Soccer or baseball: If I could play baseball, I'd really quit soccer.
Currently
049. Eating: Air
050. Drinking: Water. in the form of vapour =.=
051. Excitement level: Medium.
052. I’m about to: go eat more food.
053. Listening to: Patience- Take That.
054. Plan for today: Tuition.. tuition.. tuition.
055. Waiting for: Friday and Saturday.
056. Energy Level: Low.
057. Thinking of someone: Hangsang. =)
058. Want kids? : Yeah
059. Want to get married?: Yeah
060. When?: Any age..As long as I'm not as old as 30? lol..
061. How many kids do you want: *counts for 5 minutes..* um.. 2-4? lol..
062. Any name on the mind: King Xerxes, King Leonidas and Cleopetra? hahaha =.=
063. What did you want to be when you were little: A king.
064. Careers in mind: Traffic Police. LOL. nolaa.. no idea..
065. Mellow future or wild: mellow
066. Something you would never try: Cigarettes
067. When do you want to die: When the time comes.
Which is the better in the boy/girl you like (in the future)
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes.
069. Romantic or Funny?: Half of each.
070. Shorter or Taller?: Shorter.. DUH
071. Protective or Caring?: Caring
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: Both both.
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: Stomach.
074. Sensitive or Loud?: Half half..
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Relationship.
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: Hesitant
077. Muscular or normal: I don't love muscular girls okay.. scary.. O.O
078. Kissed a stranger: Never
079. Broken a bone: nope.
080. Lost glasses or contacts: Nope
081. Ran away from home: i didn't run on foot. I cycled. =D not really run away laaa..
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: I held it.. for self defence.. but it was in my pocket.
083. Killed somebody: no.. cats got la.. do they count? LOL
084. Broken someone’s heart: maybe.. I don't know? lol.
085. Had your heart broken: onceee. almost. one half of it was dangling from the other half. LOL
086. Been arrested: nope.
087. Cried when someone died: yeah.
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: 예.
Do you believe in
089. Yourself: yeah.
090. Miracles: Yeah, but they're not in today's world anymore.
091. Love at first sight: maybe.. I can't tell if it is..
092. Heaven: Yes
093. Santa Claus: Never.
094. Tooth Fairy: Nope.
095. Kiss in the first date: Nah.
096. Angels: Yeah
Answer Truthfully
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: 내 여자 친구. =D
098. Are you seriously happy with where you’re in life now?: Yeah. You can say that..
099. Do you believe in God?: Yes. No doubts.
100 Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people. *ignores ignores ignores*

Do this tag if you want to laaa. if you're as bored as me.. lol

Darn Tag no.1

I've been tagged a bazillion times.. since this one is so easy to do.. I did it.. =.=

1. Go to this site : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
2. Answer all of the questions
3. Once you have the answers, copy and paste them to your blog.
4. Tagging your other friends is optional.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I tag anyone who reads this post.. I'll know if you saw this but pretended not to know.. =D

And We'll Get Lost Together

I almost killed my blog by not updating it for.. 2 weeks?
Yeah.. REEALLY long time.
Even during the year end exams, I didn't leave the blog alone for such a long time.
2 weeks.. if 3 days could make all the difference, what's 2 weeks? LOL.

Last week was practically preparation for our IU day.
It was held in school.. Sadly no pics yet..
It was okay? and..
I just did my part.. The rest was.. beyond my capability. lol.
Up next is Youth Day!
If you're already disappointed with our IU day, don't expect the same thing with Youth Day.
It's on the 2nd May.
It'll be like the previous IU Days we had for years..

Eliza's birthday was on the 5th. Forgot to wish her..
She already has some devil to keep her company eh? *shows daryl corny face*
Joan's.. Erny, Kevin Lee, Jae Wen and I shared money to buy the darn expensive Korean For Dummies book..
Now we can share that book! =D
Krystle.. blah.. no presents yet.. see la this Friday if you can come along with us.

I just got back from Prefect's Unity Prog.
Also no photos yet.. =\
I have sunburn already.. O.O after how many years of hiding from the sun..

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Oh, and I've modified my bike.

I can't believe how easy it is to cycle now..

Morib here I come! =D

And to someone's someone, I'd want to watch 여름향기. lol.

Going off now..

Chaoz.=)

Directions. I Hope They're Not Wrong.

Saturday's PIBG..

From helping out, we ended up.. fooling around.

Because someone wanted to camwhore, go tarik everyone masuk.

GUY SAMO. I shall not make mention of that person's name. =D

We went there, fixed the PA, Chilled in Mr Woon's office, and went around school hanging around.

My constipated face. What happened? *suspense..*

After school, I went for a movie.. with the parents. O.O
Yeah..akward..

Anyway, we watched Valkyries.About the Nazis, Hitler, Tom Cruise, and Germany. lol..That's what the show was all about...
My Saturday just ended there.

I think I'll go rest and go study abit later.
Chaoz.

Chua forcing me to be in the picture with him.. LOL.
Benzhi and I.

Left-Right: Head prefect, dep. Head prefect 1, Dep. Head prefect 2. LOL I wish la...

Ta-daaa! That's a rose I'm trying to excrete. explains the constipated face..