Just an illusion, or reality?

It seems so far away now.
The hope of getting straight A's.
You might be wondering why straight A's
when all I do is dota, slack, and panic.
I aim high.
I was told to.
I was so confident at one point during SPM that I'll eventually get straight A's.
But nah, doesn't seem possible..
I lost my confidence just yesterday when I opened my bio textbook.
This feeling is worse than the feeling I had the day before Sejarah paper.
many times worse than that..

It's like I lost all my stamina when I'm the first to see the finish line.
Haha.
Time to go study!
Bye!