If it's not streamyx, it is not screwed up.

Is this the type of internet service they're making us pay RM77 a month for?
COME ON!
1Mbps. I think my connection is more like 6Kbps, which is worse that my previous jaring connection which is 21kpbs.
dowloading a 6Mb dota map takes me half an hour to 55 minutes.

Streamyx connects everyone says their latest advertisement.
Just because everyone is hooked on to a song doesnt mean they loveee streamyx.
It's the song, not the service provider.
And the part about connecting everyone?
Nah. I get disconnected so much now and then, i feel disconnected socially.

If my blog ever gets read by tmnet/streamyx, you know why there's P1wimax and other brands of broadband and wi-fi service provider now?
It's because your internet service starts to suck.
Even your technician doesn't know how to fix my problematic but not busted modem.
Instead he asks me to buy a new one for 80? or was it 90 bucks..
lucky I wasn't that stupid to buy one and got my modem fixed by myself.
When you call their customer service, all they do is make you do all the stupid procedures, when the main solution is just RESET MY INTERNET PORT FOR ME.
Instead, they chose to hit round the bush.
Have you done this? have you done that?
YEEEESS.
I've called them a bazillion times but they treat me like a big dumbass banana from the jungle.
Frustrating as they do all the stupid tests and services at odd times and they dont even inform us.
I think for the internet speed we're all having now, they should only charge us rm40 the most each month.

Are we being cheated?
The truth is out there..

Back again.

Stronghold: Crusaders finally loaded!

YAAAAAAH!!

After months of not playing my favourite game,

Now I can kill the Arabic nation with my army of crusaders. WOOHOO!

I highly doubt I have time to play it anyway.. = =

Powtered Day

Just got back from a long day in college.
Thinking skills teacher didn't blow her top today. (no daryl, top meaning her head or something else. not her top garment you pervert. HAHAHA)
We had only one hour of lunch break between thinking skills and malaysian studies.
So what did we do? make full use of our time!
we went to FTZ, and played Left 4 Dead 2 aaaaaaaaall the way.
AWESOME. >=D
Entered 15 minutes late for Malaysian studies,
spent the first 5 minutes hiding behind the class to finish up my lunch from the bakery.
Teacher let us go after 10 minutes. only 30 minutes of lesson?
NAH. projector couldn't work, so teacher let us go.
it's the best malaysian studies class so far.
I spent the rest of my evening waiting in the library for my dad.
I spent most of the time in there slee-*clears throat* reading. X)

I was offered a ride to the ktm, turned it down 'cause my dad was coming.
My dad called me while i was in the library, he said "take the ktm back".
GREAT.
I walk out the campus, and uncle John was passing by, he offered a ride ( which i turned down)
I walk to the ktm station and Danny contacted me and offered me a ride.
I think danny somehow learned some Dota hero skills.
He must be Chen, Holy Knight. His skill? holy persuasion.
There's no way you can keep turning his offer down. LOL.
Maybe I was already fed up of turning down rides.

While waiting for danny to turn up, I was waiting by the road at a bus stop.
PIAK! great. bird shit on my shirt.
I went into depression after that. =(
Tried to clean up the piece of artwork left behind by a crow.
Walked to Subang parade's toilet to clean it up.
I ended up finding out my bag was stained by the crow's crap too.
Now it's not gna be my pillow in class anymore until it's clean.

Time to go.
stupid Daniel Powter song came into my head when I was crapped on.
It made my whole day go down the drain.
BYE!

It's the begining. Will it sustain?

Today after college we celebrated SuetSim/Samantha's birthday.
waited only after the others' bio class to end to celebrate.
Only ashwini, aravind and I dropped bio (we were called the lucky ones), so the two of them went to get the cake and hang out at Asia Cafe while I.. Um.. tried to finish some of my homework. hehehehe.


We got back to our campus's concourse and met up with the rest.
Lit up the candles on the cake near the cafeteria, and slowly walked into the cafeteria to surprise the birthday girl.
She might've expected it already though.
For once our entire class took a picture together..
wait, we left out Thomas and Jevan ( the smelly water buffalo) 'cause they couldn't make it.


Looking at how our classmates interact with each other, I really prefer JNS2, which is our class, to JNS1.
JNS1 is filled with nerds and.. there's no nice atmosphere there.
HEH.

JNS2! YAAAH! somehow aravind seems to be trying to pull down my shirt.. (stole this pic from wendy's blog. =P)

Bye!

The sand blown away

Time flies.
It's the 3rd year you're in the US.
And you've been back only twice for the summer holidays.
I guess you won't be back this summer.
Things have changed so much since you left.
The house used to be very noisy.
Not only the house but wherever you were.

Time flies.
Too fast to even catch its tail.
What we have now are just memories.
Hope to see you soon, sister.

Goofing around the morning you arrived during your first summer break.

Fracture points.

I miss playing sport games.
I miss tennis(even when i'm not good at it), ping-pong, basketball, badminton, captainball, and cycling.
Something's missing?
Yeah, I don't miss futsal.
It's the reason why I busted my right knee.
It's like I've been deprived of playing for years.
Now as I walk, people stare at this weird guy limping down the hall.
DON'T STARE LA!
I feel like an OKU if everyone stares ( could've been that I was actually born OKU D: )


I don't know what I'm looking forward to now.
Everything's so boring.
I wake up, go college, come back, have my dinner, stone, sleep.
I hate going through the same routine over and over.
Give me something to look forward to.
Something that makes my blood gush through my veins rapidly, something that makes my adrenaline get secreted into my bloodstream.

I need.. a life.

Words the symbols represent

Been controlling and restraining myself from saying words.
Words I've hadn't said for years.
Words that could've been said when the blood pressure goes up, the expectations go down.
The words so commonly used by many.
Words.
Words that can cut where no knives can.

Nobody knows what the end is like.

It seems I was wrong.
The storm isn't ending.
It often seems like it is about to end, but it starts again.. and again.. and over again.
There's barely any shelter left,
There's barely anyone left around,
Unlike before.

One way or another

It's been only such a short period of time
but what has happened is alot.
One after another, they leave us.
It all won't end there.
As we grow older, there's no doubt there will be more loss than gain.

The time they depart are different from us,
but our destinations are the same.

I'm sorry for the people I know who have lost their loved ones recently.
My deepest condolonces.

Lies. Racism. Corruption.

1Malaysia. Hmm..
If they blame the chinese for taunting and being the spark for the May 13, 1969 incident, what about now?
We use the word Allah, widely used globally as a general term for God, and here they come burning churches down.
They're the agressive ones.
Not all, but a majority.

I'm not really a racist, but I do hate the malays in teluk pulai.
HATE. they can ride their motorcycles all day long doing nothing.
Sit at the field dating.
Lifeless people.
They make noise, drive wrecklessly around.
The only good malays I know of are my neighbours.
The kindest of their kinds.
They don't belong in such a corrupted kampung area as teluk pulai.

Our country wants to go for progression.
For improvement etc etc.
You see them building this, building that. Nice to see?
ask them how much does it cost to build a gigantic mosque by the klang river which not many people go to and pray?
It's really humongous. especially the cost figure to build it.
They cut down trees to build more houses.
Growing population eh?
But rarely these houses are bought.
Money wasted there.
They could've just improved our ktm stations.
See what happens when the wrong people take over the ktm railways?
it's a disaster. really.
I wait each day for about 30-40 minutes just for a stupid train ride (which is 10-20 minutes way over it's supposedly arrival time)
And the train ride years back took 20 minutes or so from subang to teluk pulai.
Now it take 30++++ minutes.
Sometimes summing up to a total of 1 hour because of stupid train break downs.
Why can't they use the money on ktm stations to improve them instead of building houses no one will buy?
Somehow, it all comes down to the most basic thing our country lacks.
True, pure, sincere cops and anti-corruption agencies,
AAAAAND last but not least..

COMMON SENSE.

Just venting my frustration.

Have to go now.

BYE!

Bloodraged actions; Like it never happened before

Today, I just had an extremely long day at college.
8 hours there; 6 hours non stop lessons plus malaysian studies.

I stayed back 6 long hours yesterday at college.
Went to futsal with classmates.
But wait! so many people.
Plus i'm the kayu-est there.
PLUS i haven't been playing sports in weeks, so I was like..
just a goalpost.. no difference if i were there or not.
It jammed all the way from sports planet until.. no idea where.
Missed a train, got on a wrong train, and arrived home around 9.30p.m.
No more futsal for me..

Today our thinking skills lecturer blew her top. FUUYOOH!
it's our 3rd lesson and she already can't stand us.
She's like this kindergarten teacher trying to get some response from us. LOL.
I'm so mean eh.
Malaysian studies.. we didnt learn much.
we just crapped 10 things about how things back in the ancient civilisation is related to our modern day civilisation.
we practically used the Flintstones as our guideline.

After class was over, I finally found my way around subang and went to SJMC to visit Tracie.
she didn't want to tell anyone about the news that she'll be having on operation on her nose.
So i'll just inform everyone here. HAHA. thank me okay.
Go visit her at ward 503 emergency block at SJMC today! while stocks last! LOOOL!
Apparently she had difficulty breathing and had to remove some cartilage from her nose. EURGH.
Kangsiang was there too. Bald. HAHAHA. he was ranting about NS. Sadness.

I was scavenging round the library and found 2 books that interested me.
Books on mathematical logics! HA!

Just because you made a tiny accomplishment doesn't mean you're done with everything.
It's just the beginning..

I have to go now.
BYE!

If you get what I mean?

It's not often, but it happens.
It's not always there but when it comes, it feels like it has been hidden away for a long time.
Patiently waiting for the right moment, the weakest moment to strike, to break it all down to crumbles.
Words cannot describe, words cannot explain.
When it gets clearer, it starts to fade.
It's a nightmare yet to take place.
It could be that fear I have..
the greatest one.
Maybe.

[ R N A O D M ]

Full of surprises?
Yeah, I am.
You can expect the unexpected from me.

I need to find a solution.
I will find a way.
I will see it through.
But wait, if there's a solution needed,
what's the problem in the first place?

Life's like a box of half eaten expired chocolates; You'll never know you can get food poisoning.

15 years of education and we're just..

halfway there.




What will it be like when we're..

2 pieces from there?


HAHAHA. No idea what to post la!

BTW, That's not how I solve the cube.

It popped apart one day because I spun it too fast.

The things we do in college is killing me.

They should have bungees and something exciting to do instead of sit in class all day with an empty tummy.

Gaaaaah!

Bye!

When the candle get cut short.

No matter how, no matter when
People will eventually leave us one day.

Loved ones depart from us, away from the face of this earth.
We can only hold on to the hope that we'll meet them on the very same fateful day everyone hopes to meet each other.
We know that whatever the circumstances, whatever the situation, whatever the outcome, it is all God's plan.
Everything happens for a reason.

Just hold on and stand steadfast on the decks as the stormy winds and unending waves come upon the ship.
Just hold on closely to what you've got while you still have it.

Just hold on.
You know we'll always be here for you until it's our turn.

Equal Halves

I've been awake for 14 hours already, and mostly what I can recall is that totally..
************** ***** ****** **** **** LUNCH! and when i put the *'s, they're not badwords, they're missing adjectives and descriptions I can't think up of. HAHAHAHA.
We had lunch at Stadt's.
AWESOME steak and sausages.
Imported human meat all the way from Germany. LOL
Nah, only the shop's name and chefs were from Germany.
and best of all, most of what we ate were PORK!
on the way out, funny as it may sound, we saw 2 malay ladies sitting in this non-halal restaurant. wonder if they eat bah kut teh too..

While at bukit raja jusco's popular bookstore, I went book window shopping. LOL.
And I came to this section which says : RELIGION.
I thought they would have some good books on Christianity or something.
But the moment I scanned my eyes across every shelf, the only books there were all about Islam.
the ONLY book unrelated to islam was : The Evolution of God.
Weird, why call that section religion when they can just put there: ISLAM?!
bleeurrghhh..

Anyway, I'm just blogging crap up to keep this blog alive.
I wonder when will I receive a package from US with my xbox360 and rockband.. =(
Going off now.
Bye!

No follow ups

There hasn't been any adrenaline rush for 2 weeks straight.
This is what I call BO-RING.

When the tongue fails the mind.

What we need may not be what we want.
what we want may not be what we need either.

I think there's a swirlpool forming.
But the fog is just too thick for me to find out if that is indeed true.

Time will tell if it is just a phase.

Words are easily said, but keeping them?

Do you believe you're not being deceived? or do you not know you're being deceived at what you believe in?

Do you believe in your own religions so much,
yet do not know why you believe in them?
Many just join the crowd,
or find what's best to fit into their own lifestyles.

Are you not afraid that you are being deceived,
that everything you believed in all this time were just lies?
Many people believe blindly,
being nonchallant to the one simple question asked to them
"What makes you think your religion is the true one?"

There's the word deception. Being deceived.
Will you know if you're being deceived?
No. not when you believe in something to much, placing so much trust in it.
You will not know that you're being deceived until you're told.
You might even deny the fact that you're deceived.

Have you ever wondered why others believe so much in their own religions? Why don't they believe in your religion? could it be blind faith? do they know nothing at all?
There are those that are born into the religion of their parents.
Did you make your study, research and consider on what you want to believe,
or you just followed their decisions, not being able to make your own stand?

Have you seen everything?
Don't look with just your narrow vision.
It's time you opened your eyes,
use your common sense and logical skills to think.
The more superstitious a religion is doesn't make it the true one.

Do you know enough to come up with a conclusion?
Don't skip the evidences and facts to deny what you don't believe in.

Have you ever thought if it were all logical?

Food for thought.

And I'm hanging onto the words you said.

Some of you may not be aware of this, but I've started college today.
Um.. I mean yesterday considering the fact that it's 2a.m in the morning of the 9th of January.
time flies so fast, so do people. LOL. the only difference between time and people is that people that have gone, might come back.

Where have you gone to LIM BEN ZHI? Don't tell me you're training as a terrorists' plane hijacker. LOL.

Anyway I've found more pictures. been sorting them out. Some of them are a few years old though..

If you want to learn the art of emo, ask that guy in the picture. He teaches for free.

His method: shut up, watch, and learn. HAHAHA.

Sometimes if you feel down or discouraged, talk to a friend. If you don't have one..

Visit the nearest McDonalds' outlet and you have a companion already XD

If our team greenity didn't wear green, we wouldn't win.

Note: Left-right: tall-short. HAHAHA.

Even if you're the head of any department or society, you'll get that wet water balloon on your head if I'm around. X)

Some may be different in terms of colour but that doesn't make them special. It's what they do when everyone is looking away that makes them special. LOL.

Alright, bed time.

Bye!

Short Longs

Ever wondered why I'm so special?

I'm special because of this super power I have..

I was born with it..

only a handful of people have it..

But a majority of the human population doesn't have it..

My superpower is...

It really explains why I give a funny expression when being asked a question. my common sense still tingles now and then. HAHAHAHA.

I came across a couple of old pictures while searching for a bunch of others.

They're not really old, just feels old. LOL.

Anywaaaay..

I found pictures that suddenly brought back memories of highschool.

It's sad how he have to leave school eventually.

I missed my school's canteen food alot.

If you think La Salle Klang's canteen food is not good, YOU'RE A RETARD. X)

okay, I better not start promoting the stalls one by one.

Ben and I at petronas Philharmonic Orchestra. Don't ask why I was holding a bag. loool.

Camera man for school magazine fooling around with the school flag before sports day begun. LOL. It looks kind of obscene somehow..

One of the last prefects' gathering we attended. It was the year our prefects board became abnormally active.

We were too hyped up that day, being our first time in Acmar.

so.. first thing to do, take picture with the sign board!

Ben, Chua and I. Hiding in a classroom, escaping from the responsibilities we prefects were given. LOL.

I think chua was trying to do something gay to ben zhi. HAHAHA. Too bad he can't read this, he's in NS! XD

After the mid year holidays until my spm trials, all I could remember was I-challenge. that one month of preparation was extremely looooong. Who emerged as champions?

WE DID! HAH! *bangga*

Our screwed up performance. I looked like a zombie. Ever since then Danny started singing in every event. must thank me for giving you a headstart okay? LOL.

Our Regional La Sallian Convention 2007. Posing as Lalas at the KTM.

There are still loads of pictures but I'm lazy to upload.

Tomorrow will be the first day! for me la.. Late comer!

I'll get off the pc now.

Bye!

Your reasons. Maybe.

..Not when you were needed the most.

Sometimes a single phrase could mean so much.

What about a single word?
Why?




The holidays for me might be ending really soon.
What did I do throughout this past month?! D:

Yeah, I went skating with the usuals. It'd be a disaster if we didn't go.

Yeap, I went to Sunway Lagoon. With the usuals, too.


Then I went Shogun for buffet lunch with a bunch of friends. Who knows if we'll ever meet again? =/


Lastly, Skytrex. Played with no wink of sleep at all the previous night.

These aren't the only things I did. But some of the things I did that left sweet memories behind. =)

Great, it's raining. I missed the rainy weather. It's been a long time since it last rained. Finally..
I'll go get some sleep and prepare myself for tomorrow.

Goodnight.

It's Almost Time

Every decision come a required sacrifice.

I hate having to make sacrifices.

Not every kind, but only this.

Shiet man =/

If you can't handle it from the start, hurry change your mind before it's too late

I've been dying of boredom ever since Sunday night.
DEAD bored.
I woke up on monday and then.. ARGH! BO-RING.
The group of contacts on my MSN that were online throughout that day were under the group RETARDS. LOL. kidding, but it was boring being online for once.
So I've made up my mind on what I'm going to do until my SPM results are out in March.
But I haven't made up my mind which direction to go yet.
Have to make up my mind by tonight.
I don't know where's everyone.
I only know a few have gone off taking up part time work in AEON, some went NS, others just MIA.

I'm still thinking on whether to leave or to stay.
It's been a decision I've been trying to make for months now.

I left my stupid phone charger in Singapore. GREAT.
Great accomplishment, Bryant.
I really need people around me.
Things to keep me busy.
To keep my mind busy before it starts to rust along with its thoughts.
I need to solve maths.
I miss maths. HAHAHAHA.
Okay, I better stop blogging because I sound delusional.

To all those in NS now, all the best.
To all those working part time, I hate you for not being there to dota with the remaining of us rotting at home.
To those that have gone back to school, enjoy your days or you'll end up emo like me. LOL
BYE!

YDP '09 =D

This post came up late because I was too lazy to post it up. I'm getting lazier now that I'm out of school. =/

Anyways, YDP was organised by the LAP congregation this time. Half of our programmes weren't really according to schedule, but who cares?!

Few of us found out who our team mates were before YDP because we had to.. "help out" with some stuff. I had few same team mates as of the YDP '06, people such as Sze Yin, Eliza, and Isaac (Awesome!) sadly timotheus wasn't in my team this time. Daryl, Joann, Eugene and Ser Ern were in our team. That made our team a really awesome team XD

This time YDP was mainly based on debating on topics such as social drinking, clubbing and marrying a non-christian.

That's our team preparing our debate materials. See how stressed we look, except for Isaac LOL

For the guys' debate, wasn't anything significant to about it except that Dexter drank 600ml of water at the start of his debate on social drinking against my team and got scolded for that. XD

YDP was held at Gunung Lambak resort. Yeah, GUNUNG. our multi-purpose hall was at the foot of the mountain, dorms and chalets were along the way, Cafeteria at the top. It was like a.. 700m walk from the hall to the cafeteria.

Frequently used words in this recent YDP were: Awesome! Alright man, sien man, you dumb toot, and TAO POK!

What's tao pok? it's when a bunch of LAP guys grab their victim and pile themselves on their victim. I'd probably end up in the hospital if they tao pok-ed me.

Tim just got tao pok-ed on the last day. See him get squished.

We from the Klang had to meet up a few times to get our finale night presentation done. I ended up goofing around abit. X)

That's me trying to show "you-kno-who" 's face. XD no idea what daryl was doing though..

We all stayed up on the last night. Only very few stayed up till daybreak. I was probably one of the 3 or 4 poeple that has stayed up right up till 8.30 in the morning without getting a wink of sleep for 4 YDP's in a row. ( i put 3 or 4 people because I dont know if there were others) LOL

we all just hung around after breakfast until lunch time. We all headed down to the hall and said our last goodbyes. Sad.

That's our team (except for alvin on the left) trying to give the serious look. LOL

I accidentally blinked at the wrong time. but nevermind.

Left-Right: closed eyes, mata sepet, normal eyes. see the evolution there? LOL

I look retarded in this one. Must be because of the lack of sleep. But wait, Krystle looks even more retarded! XD

I look happy, Isaac looks mad. O.O

Joann and I (where have my eyeballs gone to..)

Guess these are the only.. um.. less retarded pictures I have..

Looking forward to YDP '10 ! =D

Bye!

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight

It's painful whether I'm there or not
Because it's all in the mind.
I don't think you'll ever know or even notice.
You can choose to do whatever you want.
Say. speak. explain.
But whatever it is, we go back to the old phrase.
We know that our actions speak louder than words.
Loud or soft, do speak wisely.

Things change.
Slowly or quickly,
Unnoticeably or obvious,
little or much,
they still do.
A new year, a new twist.
I shall have to prepare myself to face unexpected events.

Brain is cleared of its rust,
best to use it now or never.

Brainjuice spill

Sometimes I wonder why do we pursue the things we want so much when we already know we're bound to fail or bound to lose it eventually?

If one step leads to millions of possible outcomes, what if no step is taken? will there still be outcomes with time moving constantly?

If every word matters, why change the fact by saying all but one word? why leave me with all but one missing fact?

Yet to be explained

I don't call them nightmares, but they're unpleasant.
Most of them release this feeling of regret, disappointment, and lost.