Reopening my blog to the general public.

Mock exams are coming just right up, and I'm not going to do well for it at all.
A2, is something I will work my brains out for.
An exam I'll work really hard.. really really hard, for the first time in my life.
Which is not a good thing. -_____-

Convince me that you'll give it your all and not give up no matter what happens,
You'll have my word I'll give it everything I have.
Because, with complete honesty, you're unlike any other.
Losing you.. would be a nightmare so hard to forget.
A fear.
A great loss.

Wish you would just hear me out.
Explanations, not excuses.

Fear to do or say.
I don't know now.

It's just a feeling. It doesn't matter. right?

Only 1 word can describe what I'm feeling.
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I don't think I can bear it if it happens again.
To go through everything all over again.
Not that I'm sure it'll, but i'm having a feeling it might.. eventually.

The fear was always there, but was distant.
Now at this very moment, it's starting to get closer.
Its effects stronger by the second.
The fear of history repeating itself again, one way or another.

It's not happening, but I'm starting to feel it.
Prove my senses wrong because I can't.
I don't know how to.
I'm lost.