Well I won't forget, but I don't have much to give either, but I'll do the best I can :)

Today is the birthday of a friend,
and that friend is.. *drums roll*



TA-DAAA!

Happy Birthday Danny Lim Jih Yang. :P

Though we don't talk often nowadays, though we rarely get along, but heh, we're still buddies. >=)
You were the first person I thought who would be smart in form one.
Even from the very first day I met you.
You came over to my seat and asked me "hi, my name is Danny (which I mistakened for Benny XD ), what's yours?"
Well, straights A's, you're smart!

You've taught me things, things like being a pain in the ass for others :P
And in return, I taught you (or more like you learnt from me indirectly) to be emo.
And as a student, you've exceeded what I could achieve. =P kidding!

A team mate for champion team in I-challenge last year, a helpful friend in Leo Club, in the prefects board, and probably chemistry tuition :P

You're a great friend. Yes, you've never heard this from me but let this be the first time then.
Truth be told, you're a friend whom I can depend on especially in times of need.

Memories unforgotten..
Yes, we will always remember that tragic day where we ruined the prefects gathering. LOL!

The days we attended prefect gatherings and goofed around. :P

Once in a while catching you in retarded and totally obscene poses. XD

Part of the Anti-Chua-as-the-head-prefect Squad. ( don't kill me chua! XD )

Regional Convention. :D

Leo Camp. Yes, Top Leader award for you, happy happy. :P That's our awesome flag too you're holding. ( and Sabash somehow camouflaged into the background right beside me = =")

Not forgetting Greenity! I-challenge Champions X)

Okay, I've said more than I planned to. :P
Happy 18th Birthday!

The only reason left.
If there are no more reasons, I'll just go back to where I came from.

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We do not possess certain things even though capability is not a problem, is because we fear losing what we possess.
We don't want to get ourselves hurt when we lose something,
We don't want to be seen as someone who gives up easily if we have to let something go, when our true intentions are purely selfless ones.
We don't want to be called selfish if we hold on to something we can't let go,
We don't want to be called stubborn if we are unwilling to let something go or if we don't want to give up just yet.
We don't want to hurt others if we have to lose something.

I have this fear, to lose what I have, or what I can have.
What I can have is something that keeps me going..
Something that is the only reason why I'm staying.

How much it all means to me, I never said.
So many words in my head I never spoke of, just dying inside me to be poured out.
There are just so many things, even a balloon has it's maximum capacity before it explodes.
Never was anything said because the best was what I wanted for you.
And if I were to speak up, you'll never have the best of what you could have gotten.
And the best is something we never know would be the best.

Learning to give away what I want,
To treat another how I want to be treated,
To be someone whom the present cannot comprehend.
In other words, learning to be myself.

Staring at the book doesn't mean I'm studying.
I'm just finding something to cover up what I'm really doing.
To cover up the fact that I'm actually isolating myself and over-thinking, if not that, then clearing up my thoughts.

Right or wrong, I can't tell.

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking
I am waiting as the time goes by
I think of you with every breath I take
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine

I just want to hold you
I just want to kiss you
I just want to love you all my life
I normally wouldn't say this
But I just can't contain it
I want you here forever, right here
By my side

All the fears you feel inside
And all the tears you've cried
They're ending right here
I'll heal your heart and soul
I'll keep you oh so close
Don't worry I'll never let you go

You're all I need
You're everything

No one else would ever do
I got a stubborn heart for you
Call me crazy but it's true
I love you
I didn't think that it would be
You who made it clear to me
You're all I need

The things that make you look unusual,
The things that make you look out of place,
The things that make you differ from others,
The things that make you look weird,
The things that make you look peculiar..
In other words, the things that make you special.

I've been trying to tolerate with your lack of manners and sense of logic.
It seems that you really have no sense of logic, thinking that I don't have any.
Pointing a finger at me doesn't mean the remaining 4 aren't pointing at you.

Your attitude. You lack respect, tolerance, and even patience.
Being so selfish, you only care about getting what you want no matter what happens.
And being so selfish, you show your true colours.
You sharp tongue, uncontrolled, shooting words of anger, insults and the like at people who get in your way, not considering the effects and the consequences your actions will bring you.

You're not one to be proud of.
I've been trying to forget all the past, but you're one to be ashamed of.
You never know what you've got till it's gone.
One day you'll lose everything, then you'll know how much people have been trying to help you.

I'm sure you will learn one day.. and that day will be too late.

I cried a tear,
You wiped it dry.
I was confused,
You cleared my mind.
I sold my soul,
You bought it back for me.
And held me up and gave me dignity,
Somehow you needed me.

You gave me strength,
To stand alone again,
To face the world,
Out on my own again.
You put me high upon a pedestal,
So high that I could almost see eternity.
You needed me.

And I can't believe it's you I can't believe it's true,
I needed you and you were there.
And I'll never leave, why should I leave,
I'd be a fool,
'Cause I've finally found someone who really cares.

You held my hand,
When it was cold.
When I was lost,
You took me home.
You gave me hope,
When I was at the end.
And turned my lies,
Back into truth again.
You even called me friend.
You needed me.

"When I see your face,
there's not a thing that I would change
And when you smile,
the whole world stops and stares for a while."
-The way you are-

So often I find myself looking back at all the things I've done, the people I've let down, the people I've disappointed.
Disappointment for even the smallest matters, they haunt me.
Times of embarrassment, humiliation, loss of expectations.

Those times I was hesitant, times I was too desperate, and every single time I become someone very indecisive, they lead me to mistakes.
Sooner or later? now? when?

My mind is in such a state, you could say it's starting to malfunction.
A pool of water with gentle waves or with constant ripples in it, that's not what my mind is anymore.
Picutre a pool of stagnant water, so stagnant that there's not even the slightest current on the surface due to the blowing wind.
Just completely stagnant, it doesn't seem right at all.
Then every once in a while, a humongous splash comes, and the water in the pool splatters at every direction.

Within seconds, the pool water becomes stagnant again.
Something is wrong.

Every action I take is a mistake.
Mistakes that lead to good outcomes, or horrible consequences, that's what I encounter throughout the day.
Why do I say they're mistakes? I never know the right time to do the things I should do, actions done at the wrong timing- mistakes.
Why wrong timing?
I'm always indecisive of when I should do something or should I just leave it.
If I'm a little too early, mistake done.
A little too late, mistake done.
right on time? never happens.. does it?

Isn't it funny how time seems to slip away so fast.
One minute you're happy, the other you're sad. If life is so short,
Before we run out of time,
Why won't you take the chance,
Before our time has gone.

I don't want to lose what I have now.
I might never lose it, or I might lose more than what I think I am capable of losing.
I have a feeling I'm in the category just like others.
I was. Maybe I am now, too.
Maybe will always be.

How bad things get, all you need to do is keep talking.
Talk until the sun shines again.
Talk.

So many reasons to why I miss those old days,
the days of April and May,
June and July too,
times that are now only our live's backview.