Ever felt like your life was ending soon?
Yes, of course I had. twice.
Only the second one occured recently..

Wednesday rashes started showing up on both my hands
Areas on the inner part of the hands starting from the end of the first thumb knuckle right up to my wrist.
It started spreading and dispersing around.
A big patch of blood suddenly appeared under my skin of my feet, in other words, internal bleeding.
Headache started kicking in on thursday, I decided to head for the doctor on Friday morning, even if it means skipping college.
As the seconds go by, I started thinking that this could be something serious.
I could be down with some blood disorder.
I could be dying soon. haha.
The thoughts we have when something doesn't go right with our bodies, it drives us nuts somehow.

Friday my headache got worse.
Somehow I knew it wouldn't be something serious, but I was rather afraid.
Waiting at the hospital almost half a day, having to go through various scans.
From bloodtest to x-ray, from x-ray to ultrasound, from ultrasound scanning to urine tests.

From having to skip one day of college, my thoughts suddenly picked out the first line of westlife's moments song. = ="
Stupid? yeah.
Very.

Turns out that I have Vasculitis.
No, it's not that I'm weak or what.
My blood and organ status are perfectly fine.
The cause of this Vasculitis?
Could be a sudden action by my antibodies to attack my own body, or some after effect of a viral infection.
Doc couldn't figure out.

You could say I'm fine now.
What a relief. But potong at the same time.
oh well.
I shouldn't be here.
Bye!