Struggling to Hold My Tongue Back.

It's the sunday night.
The same sunday night I have every year.
The same one I have before each YDP camp and childrens camp.
It has been a total of..10 camps? yeah.. something like that..
10 camps means 10 years.. gosh, time really flies by when you're having fun.
This year's YDP is going to be at the same place as my first YDP, Gunung Ledang.
It's going to be the 4 days and 3 nights everyone has been looking forward to every year.
I'll be back on Thursday.
it's already 11.25 when i type this, but I haven't even start packing yet.
I'm a really last minute person.

Samuel and Christine just shifted to Kota Kemuning few days back.
But since Sam is not going for YDP, only Christine is coming and stayover.
The moment she sees my sister, they're already.. ahh..
You can try your best, but they'll never seperate.
So, don't bother trying.
At least this time they're not tearing down the house.

I haven't been thinking straight these days.
I can't really focus or stare straight at someone.
Somehow my eyes just pull away each time i try.
I've been distracted by everything too long, so trying to focus on something isn't something easy for me anymore.
I've been keeping too much inside.
I think i'm going to blow any moment.
it has been quite a long time since i blew my top.
Yeah, I just have the urge to blow up now.
And..the few lines above, might not be making sense, cause I cant get my mind straight. lol

I tried playing this new game on garena today.
Blackshot.
Not so ugly game.
Kinda fun.
But I hate the colours.
It's hard to differenciate between your enemies and the walls.
They just seem to camoflouge into their surroundings. =.=
But overall.. pass laaa.

I won't be online or posting anything for the next four days.
I don't think it'll make a difference anyway since i dont post like everyday..

Trying too hard for something that wouldnt work at all,
Going all out for something that's not worth it at all.
Expecting the worse to come when you've already had the unexpected in your face.
Pushing aside all the help given when they were really needed for your case.
Thinking too much about something that you wouldn't do anyway in the end.
Wasting all your time away for something that'll just bring you nothing more than a Yen.
The sky is just too clear when it's dark.
when doing nothing also leaves behind a mark.
I burned my own map,
Talked nothing but crap.